Safe Place

Silence I.

What a beautiful thing right? Staying quiet, completely in silence. But the truth is that silence can kill you.

We only love silence when we look for it, when we need it for some concentration, but we hate it when it comes by itself, because it usually comes with loneliness. Why is it that we hate such a beautiful thing? Because it makes our mind wonder in the darkest parts of our thoughts and you feel things you don't want to feel, you find out things about yourself that you wish you never did. When you stay in silence your demons come to play.

I try to avoid my silence with music, but here is the thing about music, it makes you feel and, sometimes, understand what you are going through. You can kill the silence with sole beats and meaningful lyrics but you are going to feel, wether you want or not, and feeling while listening to music it's a magical sensation. I cry, when i'm feeling down or i'm just feeling nothing and I put my headphones on and listen to some music and I cry because I feel what they are saying, I feel that someone understands me. Music makes me survive.

So I like that music makes me cry and feel because sometimes crying is all you need, sometimes feeling that someone understands you is all you need.

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This is going to be something like an independent section. This text along with others are part of my private journal, where I write my feelings and stuff.

I started that section because silence is part of my problem, now if you keep reading Silence you'll see that silence is a lot of things and means a lot of things to me, and I didn't know that until I started falling more into it.

There might be some things you don't fully understand and thats okay because this section is really personal and I wrote it mostly before, during or after my anxiety attacks. So feel free to interpret them in your own way, in a way that helps you.

I guess that what i'm tying to say is that i'm not an expert on this topic, and maybe these texts are wrong, maybe i'm wrong but they've helped me, they are my thoughts and feelings and I just hope they can help you too.

What singers or bands makes you feel safe, like you are not alone and someone has your back? For me it is Twenty One Pilots, I owe them so much...