Seventeen Going On Eighteen

A Story

I couldn't love him
I didn't love myself
But I fell anyways
It was hard and complicated
And eventually I knew I had to let go
But I was depressed
And he made me more calm

This is a guy I thought I knew
We clicked easily
But it was never true
Close as friends
But never to be seen
His disappeared into the dark
And he blended right in.

When I met him I was sad
And all the times he made me mad
But I needed him to like me
Because I couldn't like my self
I needed someone to talk to
Cause someone's one wasn't enough

This guy was sweet the best I've know
His heart was pure
He was light as snow
We made it far
But it would have never work
Close at heart but distance apart
We just kept things in the dark.

The last guy I met
I fell had
I wanted to be what him
But he left me apart
Uncertain about things
I knew I loved him
Saw a world with him
But he was as blind as mice.