My Idol or Soulmate?

Chapter VII -> The mark turns purple

Singto Pov

Be safe son, return soon. I'll be back in 4-8 weeks mom, I'll keep you posted but don't tell anybody else where I am okey? Okey son, bye mom, bye dad, take care son.

Conversation between the parents

Oh honey how come he is so smart in rational affairs but cannot even see his own love for his mate?

Don't know maybe he overthinks about everything. Reading books about what we feel when we meet our mate like a checklist. If one thing is weaker or different the outcome is a no. I think it is a good way for him to find out by doing what he is doing right now.

And what about his mate? If he comes and asks where he is what do we say then? We're sorry he was confused and took a break? Really??? What will the poor thing do? He'll be devastated that his mate left him because he was confused.

Maybe his mate goes after our son?

Heaven may prevent that happening. How will Singto react when his mate chases him even when he goes to take a brake!

Ehm, by running even harder?

I exactly, you men always think to know everything but look how it's going. We shall have to tell that boy the truth, and then it is up to him what to do about it.

So you are sure be will come and ask us where Singto is?

Sure, he knows where he lives and he seems to know that he and Singto are mates. Really that son of ours needs his brain cleaned out, there is too much dust inside for it to properly function. I mean why must he be so afraid? He might be shy and introverted but he basically told us how much he likes him. Why can't he just realize?

I don't know, we mustn't interfere though, let everything go as it goes and pray he'll soon return.

End of conversation

Singto pov

My parents had declared me to be absolutely stupid. Though they didn't say it out loud I saw their faces and those expressions were telling. But they might never understand it. I really needed some rest to determine what I was feeling. Was Krist maybe my mate? If I was honest with myself I knew that was the case but I wanted to deny it. I didn't want an aloha as my mate. How much I liked him, how deeply he made me fall in love or deepened my crush the fact that he was an alpha was something I couldn't bear. It was something I never told anybody but it was the whole underlying reason. Since I had been attacked once by an alpha on the street, an episode that had me nearly killed and/or claimed by someone I had been terrified of alphas. I had been searching feverishly for my mate but since that event I stopped and immersed myself into life to forget about my mate. But the mark on my chest was the undeniable evidence of the contrary. It would often glow softly so that it shone through my pajamas in the dark reminding me someone out there was waiting for me.

The last time I and Krist went out confirmed to me that he might really be my mate. How I felt around him corresponded in every way with how mates felt around each other. E was just too beautiful and sweet, I wanted to cling to him and never let him go or leave me. But together with that realization came fear. I'd only seen my idol, not the real Krist! How would he be? How could I trust an alpha after what happened in my life? How could I know I wasn't to be hurt or dominated by such a person again?

I sighed and while into the plane the pain in my chest got worse. I was utterly conflicted, being torn apart between the fear of getting hurt and the possibility that I was trying to shut my mate out of my life. That was, if he was my mate. Wasn't it just some wishful thinking on my behalf that had made me believe so? After all everything started by accident. Also if he was my made why didn't he make a move? It was custom that alphas took the first step in a relationship and not the omega. Really Singto? Who are you trying to convince with this nonsense? Maybe he wanted you to realize first and not force you into nla relationship just because of an ordained bond you might or might not share! And give one reason he might hurt you? He is an alpha! And while he may be kind in public once those instincts het online then what! You don't even know whether he is your mate and you are already running away? Don't repeat my parents words! As your conscience and rational intuition it is my duty to give you a mirror, I didn't ask for a mirror, might be but you can't sent me away, okey okey, he is my mate, is that what you want to hear? No, I want you to think whether you are running away from your mate out of fears or whether you are really going away to figure out your feelings. Don't fool yourself Singto, it won't bring you much good.