MOONSTRUCK; Yoonmin

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But as much as we wanted, we couldn't stay away from each other. I find myself eagerly picking up the phone only two days after he told me to go away, his name on the display.

"You ruined me."

His words hit like bricks but I don't care. He's hurt me far worse than this.

"I, ruined you?"

It's silent on the other side of the line, leaving me to wonder if he's still here. And why he called in the first place.

"Come over."

"Okay." Too fast, too fast I reply to his question. Too fast I agree to be back in his life again, as if he hadn't asked me to leave, as if he hadn't broken my heart by asking that.

But a broken heart seems to have become the default with him. He's good at hurting people, even better at hurting me. Still I stay, because I love him.

So I take the fastest road there, not caring that he'll only hurt me more once I get there. I think part of me believes that I like the pain, it makes me love him even more.

I can't even hate myself for the fact that I'm here, showing up when he asks me too. Ready to destroy myself for no good.

Because Yoongi doesn't care about his efforts, about his love, about him. Yoongi just wants his body, and for some fucked up reason he's okay with hurting himself for it.

"You came?" Yoongi seems genuinely surprised. "Guess you weren't strong enough to stay away either."

"Don't say it like that, you knew exactly that I'd come right over."

"I hoped you would."

There he goes again, falling even harder for this man that has never believed in love.

"Let me love you." I say, hoping he would at least allow me to love him. "I'm not asking you to love me back, I'm asking you let me love you."

"J-jimin."

"No just wait, I don't care if you hurt me. I don't care whether you love me or not, I don't care that you sleep with other people. Just let me love you." I say, knowing I sound desperate but I am desperate.

"You do care, you care too much." He replies before stepping inside. Allowing me to come in.

"I can stop, don't you get that I can do anything for you."

"Jimin stop." He snaps, shaking his head as he goes to lean against the wall. "You need to stop because you're messing with my head."

"I'm messing with your head?!" I yell. "Do you have any idea what you have done to me?!"

"Which is exactly why we can't be together, I'd just hurt you worse because I like it!" He yells back. "I like hurting you! I like how you stay no matter what I do! Hell maybe I am hurting you just to see if you'll stay. Yet, I put you through hell and I still can't get myself to believe you won't leave!"

"You don't have to believe anything because the truth is that you I won't leave! Don't you get that?!" I feel hopeless, lost and tired. I just want him, I need to love him. I feel like I'm going insane without loving him.