khr arc:future & past.

16:I wish...

harmoni pov:

I was so afraid I couldn't see him than. The first thing that flashed through my head when I was electrocuted was ieyasu....

ieyasu: harmoni . You're here.

I stood up to leave and walked past him when he grabbed onto my arm. 'why are you avoiding me?'

harmoni: who says I'm avoiding you?

ieyasu: you know I always look for you in the morning for breakfast. You know I always look for you before you go to sleep. You know I always look for you when I go to to town. I don't see you at all for these few days.

harmoni: so? You angry now?

I shrugged his arm away and walked past him.

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tsuna: do you mind if I ask you some questions?

harmoni: hm? yea sure.

tsuna: why are you avoiding ieyasu?

harmoni: I.... tsuna... how come you can love kyoko without thinking much? Aren't... gomen... but aren't you afraid she will die?You are mafia.You will... gomen... cause her death.

tsuna: I... thought that before. But that's after I married her.

harmoni: gomen.

tsuna: I have thought before of giving her up. But... I love her too much to give her up. And she... she doesn't want to leave me either.

harmoni:you asked before?

tsuna: um. I asked her... do you hate this life? Of being with me.Afraid of getting killed every second because of me.

harmoni:than what did she answer?

tsuna: no. I am not afraid. I know you will protect me. She answered.

Protect... I can't do that.  I only bring ieyasu harm... ' I... am so useless..'

'baka. So that's why you've been avoiding me?' he walked in. Ieyasu... he had been eavesdropping the whole time. He walked to my front and  I stood up . I walked to the left but he blocked me.

harmoni: move.

He hugged me and I tried to struggle out ' stop it. '

harmoni: I refuse!!!

ieyasu: don't be selfish. I love you but you won't let me protect you or go near you.

My tears were at their edge... I don't want to tell him why. I know he will say something to soften me. 'let go!!!'

ieyasu: listen carefully. I will chase you wherever you try to run. If you think you can get rid off me you are wrong.

'ieyasu...' My tears flowed. He had done it once again.... softening my heart. I stopped struggling.... and hugged him tightly. He stroked my head.

harmoni: than... I will grab tight on you. But... you will die.You okay with that?

ieyasu: I was forced to make a choice. The darkest room and the room that was right behind your friends.

harmoni: so...?

ieyasu: I know you're afraid of darkness. But I know even more, that you are afraid of losing the people close to you. So don't ever throw me aside. You're not the only one who will get hurt because of that, me too.

I hugged even more tightly 'ieyasu....' He knows me best. How I wish I wasn't a storage. I wouldn't bring him this much problems...

If only I was a normal girl...