Break Free (A Harry Styles fanfic)

Chapter 23

Jasmine's POV

I was touched by Harry's story well more than touched I was practically tearing up.This is worse than what I thought I can't believe he's been through all of this.I'm glad that he opened up to me and shared one of his deepest secret.I don't look at him differently but still can't help to feel sorry for him I mean he killed his family and he wasn't even concience enough to realize it.Being a vampire really has changed him.

Harry may seem like a hot funny and amazing dude well your typical American guy with his curly hair and green eyes.However when I look into those eyes it seems like I've never seen someone  with such guilt and remorse.He hold on to so much secrets and darkness than he was letting on.Harry got the gift to live forever but he also has the curse of those feeling haunting him and thats the thing about pain it demands to be felt.Wow now I'm acting all John Green.great!

"Harry I'm so sorry  I didnt know" I said with sympathy

"Its okay I'm fine now its been a long time"He said obviously lying

"no Harry I know it's not fine I've tried the feeling and its terrible"

"Gemma was still alive you know but I couldn't look at her without feeling guilt without being terrified that I'd easily hurt her too but after a couple of years when I was better at control I looked for her I practically searched for her everywhere but I couldn't find her and I still dont know if she was dead or alive" He said

"I'm so sorry Harry you don't deserve this no one does.But you survived and you cant keep the past haunting you or else you'll never be able to truly enjoy living again you have to let go you weren't yourself back then it wasn't your fault" I said

" I know Jessie that's what I was trying to convince myself with but I can't help but wonder what if I wasn't a vampire what if I never went after blood what if I stopped for a moment and thought about who I was about to hurt" By the time he finishes he stops the car and we finally arive home.Wait did I just call it home? no this cant be happening.Not the time Jasmine!

I look at Harry and it seems like he's barely keepin it togather so I hug him. I hug him so tight like my life depended on it.I know he needed that.Underneath all the bad vampire act hes just a boy who lost his mom too soon who didnt get to live his life who is brocken on the inside.Somehow this made me love him even more.I love his human side I love that he's still able to feel after all this pain and guilt inside him.I simple just love him.

In this moment I was afraid to get what I really want what if he doesnt feel the same?Im practically dying to kiss those soft lips to make him feel better to let him know that there'a someone hear to help him but instead I let my fear get in the way and settle for only a small kiss on the cheek.

"Come on lets get inside the lads are probably worried by now" He says going out of the car with me following him.As we step on the porch Harry pulls my wrist back and I look at his soft eyes.

"Hey Jessie what do you think about me giving you a kiss right now?"

God he's so freakin moody! Wasn't he just sad like a second ago?

"you know I can hear you right?"

"well smartass I don't care" I said. Amazing comeback Jasmine real smooth. I officialy suck at combacks.

"well smartasser how about that kiss on those sexy hot lips?" He said with a smirk looking me in the eye.

I blushed at his question.Seriously he's askin me?! Like I would be able to resist him

"You just definitly ruined the moment by asking me that so wipe that stupid smirk of your face and smartasser is not even a word!" I said laughing at him a bit pretending like I actually don't care