Alex's P.O.V
God I must've drank a LOT last night, my head was pounding. I tried to roll over to check the time but there was a big weight on me, almost like a dead body. I opened my eyes, squinting as the harsh daylight streamed through my open curtains. "hmmmm" the weight on my body mumbled the person, I now realized, was stirring, oh no. I didn't even want to look at who it was, probably just another girl whos name I will've forgotten already. I peeled my eyes open fully looking down at whoever it was. Shit. No no no. What had I done.
"morning babe, I missed waking up next to you", the familiar voice of ex, Grace said in her usual overly sweet voice. What had I said last night without even realizing? By the looks of it our most recent 'break' from each other was over.
"hey" I said as happily as I could, planting a soft kiss on her cheek. "er what em did we aheh do last night exactly?" I said, my cheeks turning bright red as I got to the end of my sentence.
"Just the usual, you know" she said now blushing as well. "I'd uh better get going", she said sighing and grabbing her discarded clothes from my bedroom floor. "Bye love you"
"Love you" I shouted after her as she left me lying in bed wondering what the hell I'd just done.
Last night. It was my birthday party. No our birthday party. Me and Char's. Char. Shit. Char. I couldn't remember much from last night but one thing I could remember was her walking away, crying, but I couldn't remember why, what had I done? I tried calling her. Straight to voicemail, weird. Maybe her phone was just dead? Maybe she was still asleep, I mean it was only 8am still. I'd try her again after I'd showered, the smell of Grace's way too strong perfume clung to my skin and it wasn't making my headache any better, I'll tell you that. The hot steam in the shower started to clear my head as I stood there, the scalding water almost burning my skin. That's when I remembered, that's when it all came crashing back, the weird smell of my clothes, the way I still felt lightheaded. I'd gotten high again last night. That was why she was crying. I'd gotten high again, after I promised her I'd never do it again. How was I gonna make up for this? I know how badly it affected her the last time, the scare she'd gotten from my 'episode', no no no. I had to go and speak to her, like right now. I jumped out the shower immediately doing the secret knock we'd made up when we were younger to signal to each other that we were coming around. I waited for her reply, but it never came. Fuck it, I had to fix this. I knew I'd messed up for real this time.
