"i will not kiss you"
johnny's pov
she never told me..
i ran in terrified.
we were all at the Curtis' house when Darry got a call from the hospital.
Darry hung up the phone quickly. He looked at all of us with a sad expression. I looked at Ponyboy.
"w-what's wrong?" Two-Bit asked, Darry looked at him then at me.
"Did you know?"
'did i know what?'
"what do you mean?" i said clueless, was i supposed to know something? i can't ever get my life together so i believe i'm always forgetting things.
"about y/n.."
'oh god, what about her?'
"w-what?"
Darry looked at me, he looked like he was trying to hide something. i suddenly started panicking
"what about her?" i raised my voice
"the hospital called, she.." he paused
"she what, Darry?! Spit it out!" i yelled scared.
'the hospital called. what the hell is happening i'm scared. terrified to be exact'
he waited a minute before speaking..
"she had Cancer.."
'what? he's lying. he has to be. she tells me everything! and i mean everything!"
"oh stop the bullshit, seriously what's wrong?" i said not taking that.
Right then and there,
Darry started crying..
He wasn't kidding?
She has Cancer..
i ran out of the house crying, i ran straight for the hospital.
'i need to see her.'
i heard the others following me- i kept running.
"Johnny get back here!" Daley yelled
i ignored him and kept running until the hospital was in my sights.
"Y-Y/N, L/N"
i said to the lady at the reception desk.
"she's getting ready for surgery- i don't give a shit i need to see her!" i yelled causing the whole waiting room to look up
the receptionist looked at me
"sir, calm down"
"no! I won't calm down!" i said raising my voice, some guards came over
"i need to see her!" i cried
"i need to see my baby"
the guards made sure i wasn't going to punch anyone.
"room 302"
"thank you."
i ran straight upstairs, i looked down hallways left and right.
i turned a corner and saw Room 302
the door was slightly open.
i slowly walked in.
i saw her.
she looked pale, sick, and sad..
"y-y/n?" my voice broke
her head slowly turned towards me
she had IV's in her arms and tubes hooked up to her
'i hate seeing her like this'
"b-baby? what's going on?" i said looking at the Doctors and Surgeons who all stood in the room.
"i'm getting surgery.." she said softly, has horrible as this place was and how much i hated everything happening her voice calmed everything.
"for what?" i said nervously
she didn't answer
"Johnny?"
"Yes?"
"I'm sorry.."
"Why?"
"I'm dying."
i looked at her thinking about what would happen if she died. I would be lost. Forever. She's the reason i haven't killed myself.
When my parents beat me or i get chased by Socs, i'd always go to her. she was always there.
But some how now she won't be?
"why?"
"i have Cancer.."
Darry wasn't lying? i broke down in front of the doctors, not caring who was watching.
"no, you can't. you can't." i cried
"i'm getting it removed.."
"when?"
"Now.."
So she's gonna be okay? i told myself. She's gonna be okay. She's gonna live. She's gonna come home and hang out with the gang and I. She would still play with my hair when we cuddled. She would kiss me repeatedly before we fell asleep. The Gang would still pick on us about how cute we were- or that we knew nothing about Love. Ponyboy would still ask what being in Love feels like. Everything would be normal.
Normal.
Home.
Okay.
She's gonna be Okay.
"Sir, We need to get Started." some surgeon said with a cream colored mask on.
"okay.." i said nervously, i didn't want to leave her.
i looked down at my girl
"I love you?"
"And i Love You... Always"
i leaned down to kiss her, she moved her face away.
"Please dont.."
I wanted to to cry, but i stayed strong in front of her.
"Okay.."
i whispered softly, i gently kissed her hand.
then walked out.
The Gang was outside the door
"how is she?"
"i think she's gonna make the surgery"
"good.."
"my baby is gonna live."
