A parallel universe

Okay.

"Can i just hold your hand P'?" Kongpob almost plead, almost
"Can. But not in here Kong!"Arthit hissed and looking everywhere
"But no one knows us here! You know. nevermind. Let's just eat" Kongpop walk straight up through Pattaya Night Market
Arthit breathout the sound of relief

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"Why you smell so nice" Kongpop snuggles up to Arthit's neck
"Kong ... we're in the movie..stop it" Arthit avoiding Kong's amazing and talented lips
"We're the only one on this row P'.. and you really smell nice" Kongpop hands already inside Arthit's shirt
"Kongpop! I want to watch the movie" Arthit grab Kongpop's hand before it went south
"You want to watch the movie? Nevemind. Let's watch it" Kongpop grab the popcorn and sit straight
Arthit breathout the sound of relief
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"Have a good day P'Arthit khab" Kongpop briefly hugs Arthit
"Erm .. you too" Arthit dodge away while pretending tucking his bagstrap
This always happen, Kongpop always let it slide.
But not this time. He grab Arthit's shoulder and hug him tight
"KONGPOP!" Arthit push Kongpop, hard.
And he walk fast to his class, ignoring the hurt flashes on Kongpop's eyes
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Arthit enjoying his lunch with his friends when someone kiss the top of his head, reflexly Arthit spun around with his fist threw straight to that someone
"P'! Why are you punching me?" Kongpop grimace, Arthit really can threw a punch
"Why are you sneaking up on me like that?" Arthit looking at Kongpop scandalous
"Sneaking up on you? Aren't i your boyfriend P'?" Now Kongpop looking like scandalous
"You know what? Nevermind." Kongpop raise his hands in defeat and walk away.

"Erm .. aren't you suppose to run after him?" Bright confusely poke Arthit who's continue his lunch
"He's alright"
This time Arthit holding up a breath.
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"P', we need to talk" Kongpop sitting at his dorm chair when Arthit walk in after class
Arthit holding up his breath and sit infront of Kongpop
"Is it just me or are you avoiding affection in public?"
"What kind of affection?" Arthit tried to stall
"My affection P'... you're not so keen in holding hands, hugging and even punch me when i tried to kiss you. And don't tell me it is one time only, we've been dating for a year now and it always happen"

Arthit counting imagenary numbers in his head
5
4
3
2
"And i'm getting tired P'.. tired to understand, tired to always initiate everything. I feel like i wanna give up. Should i give up P'..?"

1.

"I'm sorry Kong but ... i'm just not so crazy about public display of affection" Arthit now prays that he's not giving up

"But it's been a year P'.. don't you love me? Or are you ashame of us? Is that it?"
"I never ashame of us. Everyone knew i'm dating you"
"Then what P'? You need to tell me"
"I told you over and over again l, i don't like PD.."
"Bullshit." Kongpop standing up, his back facing Arthit

He's giving up.

Arthit tried to reduce the pain he felt in his chest by massage it slowly

"I think we need sometime to think it over P', at least i need it." Kongpop's back still facing Arthit

"What do you mean?" Arthit knew the answer but he need to hear it from Kongpop

"I think we need sometime on our own to figure this out" the moment Kongpop turn his face facing Arthit, Arthit schooled his expression

"I'm tired and i don't want to hurt you with words if i continue this. I just need tim-"

But you already are," okay"

Kongpop look at him," what?"
Arthit stands up,"Okay" he smiles

Kongpop want to probe more but something in Arthit's smile stop him.
For the first time ever Arthit's smile hurt him so much he can barely breath
"Okay, then. See you around?" Kongpop grab his bag and walk to the door
"Goodbye" Arthit opening the door, with the same exact smiles
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It's been 4months and Arthit still hoping this is just Kongpop taken his time to evaluate everything.
This is not a break up.

BRAK!
"I'm so sorry, so sorry" someone bowing deep while hastily pickups all his beloging
"It's okay" Arthit crouch down and helping picking up his things
He look up and gawking
"P...P'Arthit khab i'm ...i'm ... so sorry i didn't know it's you" he's wai-ing nervously
Arthit look up and chuckles
"It is ok Nong ...?"
"Singto khab" again this kid wai-ing deep
"It is okay N'Sing. Study hard" Arthit walk away after ruffling the kid hair

What Arthit didn't see is someone stare from behind the tree.
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Arthit jogs to his next class, he is so late.
But he froze seeing a scene infront of him, there Kongpop sitting on one of a bench around campus reading what lookslike a modul.
But what halting his jogs is what laying next to Kongpop also reading a modul, head lay comfortably on kongpop's thigh. Prepailin.

So, it is a break up.

Arthit walks slowly to his class. His chest hurts so much if he runs.
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It's been 7months Kongpop avoiding canteen. He rather eats out or order something.
He knows it's very childish of him but he still can't look at Arthit's being okay.

So again like any other day he took a detour, crossing some secluded bench just behind canteen and his steps stop.

There in one of the secluded bench he saw Arthit sleeping with his head on the table, his face facing someone infront of him with exact same position.
That someone rubbing his head gently.
And under the table they're holding hands.

Kongpop runs. A thousands NO repeating in his head
and at one point it explode
"NO!" He yanked Arthit's shoulder, and hug him tight
"You don't get to rub his hair! You don't get to hold his hands! NO!" Kongpop know he's sound like a maniac but he just don't care

That someone ready to charge back at him but arthit put up his hand and look into Kongpop's eyes
"You are breaking up with me. You. The one don't get to hug me Kong"

Kongpop confusely look at Arthit but here and there finally Kongpop understand something in Arthit's smile back then

Kongpop let go of Arthit

You gave up on me,"Okay"

Arthit froze, No. No. please don't smile

"I'm sorry, have a good day" Kongpop smile and walk away

The end.