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Chapter 1

                                                              
September 6, 2021
5:57am
Dear Diary,

                   Today in 5th period, Jahseh sat beside me. (Even though that's normal because he does everyday.) I swear, I almost DIED. He is like the cutest boy in school. Nvm, scratch that. He IS the cutest boy in the school. I know everything about him. (Not  a stalker) But... his favorite color is red. His favorite rapper is J. Cole. His favorite clothing brand is Addidas. (But he isn't picky) It is more but that's just to name a few. His full name is-

"Key'Onni", My older brother, Key'Ondre, interrupts my diary writing session.
"It's time for school", he continues.
"Okay", I reply gathering my things to head off to school, or what I like to call HELL.

I know you're probably wondering, "Why are you going to school at 6:00 am?" Well, me and my brothers go to a private school called Greenwood Prep. (Home of the lions). And before you have a chance to ask anymore questions, let me tell you about myself.

My name is Key'Onni Miasia Nicole Allen. I have 3 siblings. My older brother, Key'Ondre  Allen, my younger brother, Key'Onjay Allen, And the youngest of them all, my sister, Key'Onna Allen. My mother, Key'Jhane and father Jh'Onathan wanted all our names to be really close. I can tell the teachers have a hard time saying all our names. (Nicknames; Key'Onni/Nini  Key'Ondre/Dre  Key'Onjay/Jay  Key'Onna/Nana)

But my friends call me Tokyo.  I am 16 years old, a junior in high school, and I have a HUGE crush on my bestfriend, Jahseh Onfroy. He knows I like him, and he teases me about it.

But anyway, as I got into the car, I realized I left Jahseh's hoodie at my house. (I wore it at school and forgot to give it back.) Oh well, I'll give it to him tomorrow.

We arrive at school and my brothers and I walk towards the doors. As I walk towards the gym, I am greeted with a smiling Jahseh in a white sweatshirt, black Adidas joggers, and white Huaraches. Not to mention, his muscles were showed perfectly on display  through his sweatshirt. I didn't notice I was starting until he brought me back to reality.

'"Key'Onni", -Jahseh
"Mm?", -Me
"Take a picture, I'll last longer" -Jahseh
"You do know I hate you, right?" -Me
"I love you too." - Jahseh
That gave me butterflies for some reason... Even though I know he didn't mean it.
"I know you do"-Me
"If you know I do, why won't you try nothin'?"-Jahseh
"What you mean?" -Me

Then, Jahseh leans in slowly. He is so close that I'm sure he can feel the heat from my chocolate chubby cheeks that are now turning a shade of red. And then... he laughs. Laughs so hard that I'm a little confused.

"Look at you blushing and shit."-He finally stopped laughing.
"Shut up boy, and what I tell you about cursing."-Me
"Girl, you ain't my mama, you can be my girl tho."-He says with a toothy grin.

I thought about it for a second gave him the side eye.

"No"- Can't believe I said that, but I did.
"No? But you've liked me since the 4th grade. We're in the 11 grade. That's a total of 7 years."-Jahseh
"Still no, not after the stunt you just pulled."-Me
"Please Mia" He says pleading. Only he calls me 'Mia'. Part of my middle name. I call him Dwayne, one of his middle names. I blankly stare at him and he notices I'm not giving in.

"We got a whole lot of love ain't tryna waste it                                                            You got me running around and I never chase it
Your face so pretty to me, make up won't make it        
Your face so pretty to me, make up won't make it"

As Jahseh was singing, several groups of students stopped and watched him sing to me. Some were recording. some were saying that it was romantic, and some girls were saying they wish their boyfriends would sing to them.

-REST OF CHORUS-

"So... what do you say?"-He asked me.
"I'll think about it."-I tapped his nose with my index finger and walked to gym class.

When I walked away, I heard the crowd of students 'oouuing'. I felt proud by declining him... even though it was a risking moving. That's why I told him "I'll think about it".

-After gym class-

Dear Diary,

September 6, 2018

7:15 am

Gym class was fun today. We played 3 on 3 basketball. Boys against girls. Jahseh and I were captains. Of course I had to play against Jahseh. Just my luck. And my classmates did NOT make it any better. The girls yelled "Jahseh and Key'Onni sittin' in the tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G..." Along with the remainder of the song. The boys left out the gym, put a dress and wig on Jackson(a boy in my class), and walked back in the gym playing the song "Trip Queemix" ( Reenacting what Jahseh did) A group of about 3 boys and 3 girls sat in a group gossiping about me and Jahseh. In a BAD way. I swear the envy us.

When I got done writing, I closed out my diary and left the locker room with my diary in my hand, considering it's on my phone. No one can ever read it. They won't be able to anyway. I have a passcode on my lock screen, a passcode on my folder where I place my diary app, and a passcode on my diary. If anyone gets passed all that, they might just be the next Rihanna from "Oceans 8".

I walk towards the cafeteria to meet Jahseh and hangout in the garden during a 20 minute break. I listen to some NWA while I wait.

-2 very long minutes later-

"Tokyo"-Jahseh.

"Oh, hey Dwayne."

"Don't 'Oh hey Dwayne' me". -Jahseh

"What did I do?"- I questioned.

"Beat my in basketball."-Jahseh explained while pouting.

"Like always."- I brag

"Stop braggin', but you a distraction."- Jahseh

"I'm a distraction?"- I asked

"The biggest"- He replied smirking

"Stop tryna be smooth." I say dying laughing.

"Ain't trying. I am smooth."-He says being dead ass serious.

"Stop please... haha" I say still laughing.

"Mane, it ain't funny" He says getting a little mad.

"You're right, it's not funny. I'm sorry.