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The Weight

Shawn imagine. (Listen to his song 'The Weight' while reading) *I'm using Leila, instead of y/n*

He lied to me. All this time I thought we were going great, until he left. I had a small part of me that thought it was my fault, but I can't change the way he feels. If he is still in love with Laur, I let him go. If he really belongs to me, he'll come. He wanted to stay friends, but the weight of seeing him with any other girl than me hurt so bad.

He said he loved me the day before he broke it off and I had a feeling he didn't really mean it. I haven't moved for three days and I knew I needed to shower. After 3 years I thought we would be together forever, I guess I was wrong. I sat on our, I mean my bed with a tearstained pillow on my lap and one of Shawn's T-shirts hanging loosely on my shoulders, the only physical reminder of him left in my grasp.

I urged myself up and walked to the bathroom, undoing my messy bun and slipping Shawn's old T-shirt from my body. I turned on the shower and sat on the floor crying for the millionth time. I washed away everything and got out. I dressed myself and looked at my outfit which consisted of light wash skinny jeans, my mom's old Ramones concert tee, and my favorite rainbow sandals. I put my hair up in a messy fishtail and grabbed my bag off the rack by the front door. I stood in the door to the house and heard the quite and felt the emptiness. I turned and locked the door behind me.

I drove to the mall and found myself in PacSun, Shawn's favorite store. They were even playing his song, 'The Weight'. I blinked several times, trying to fight the tears, but a few slipped. I wiped them away with my thumbs and walked out of the store. I was looking down when I bumped into someone, it was Laur.

"Hey Leila." She smiled and hugged me. I hugged her back. I never Hayes Laur. I was just upset that Shawn left me for her. "How are you?"

"I'm good." I lied.

"Have you been crying? Is everything ok?" she had a look of concern flash across her perfect face and I knew she knew I was lying.

"Uh...yeah."

"Aw, why?"

"It's nothing." I tried to end the whole interrogation.

"Oh ok. See you later." She hugged me once more and walked off.

"Bye." I said. I couldn't be here anymore and drove home.

I went into the bedroom and laid down on the messy sheets. I closed my eyes.

*

"Leila, wake up." I heard Shawn.

"What?" I groaned.

"Are you okay? I woke up to go to the bathroom and I come back and you were crying."

"THAT WAS ONLY A DREAM?!" I yelled.

"What?" Shawn looked confused. I told him the dream and he hugged me tight. "I knew you were jealous of Laur."he laughed.

"Am not."

"Im kidding babe. I love you so much, you have no idea. I wouldn't ever leave you for her. I promise."

"I love you too, Shawn."

"Night Leila." He kissed my head and I curled back into his chest sighing. Thank god it was only a dream.