The Lara life: Story of new aging.

innocence.

A/N: Hello everyone again! It's taken me a little while to write this because i've been trying ot check my spelling and everything. but i hope you enjoy the chapter! Im trying to go a little deep into the story, but withought getting straight to the point. :) *******************WARNING****************** The ending part may offened some. if so im very sorry, but i was just trying to make you understand what she is going through. but when i start to write more, some things maybe explained much better, so it could be gone over again. thought i should let you know first. M.

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I'm on my own. There's no one I can talk to anymore. My parents once loved me; now they don't even look at me! My siblings used to come to me for help; they just turn their backs when they see me. Whenever I try to talk to my Joel Oaks friends, they tell me to 'Piss off' or they hang up after hearing 'Hey, it's Lara'. I only have myself to blame, I got too far deep in this gang! I should--

"Have not been on your iPod then!" I yelled from the tree house. I smirked at him, harder then I ever have. He also went inside to tell on me no doubt, can't complain, I've got peace and quiet to start writing. I sat on a beanbag and tried to find a comfortable sitting position. I flipped the book open and noticed a little message from my mum:

'To my darling daughter, Lara. I will always love you, no matter what! xx Mum'.

I just smiled and flipped to the next page.I think I owe it to myself to write in this everyday, I've never done something where I'm really dedicated to it. There's not much to write about though, but here goes nothing!:

                      1/2/12.                    Monday.                    1:13PM.

To FM, Thats what I'm going to call this, 'FM' which stands for famous me. I feel silly writing this, but it has to be done! It's only the second day of the year and I'm already bored! New Years this year was, AMAZING, we had friends and family, and family friends come over! We just talked and played games, and then later at night, we watched the fireworks. They were loud but so beautiful. Fireworks are one of my top 5 things to watch in the sky. My first entry is very boring, but I'm a boring person. Hopefully Lara, you will get more exciting this year! Okay, I'll leave it here. From, PM (present me).

So that didn't feel weird at all! I put my head back and turned it to the side to look at the window. It was an amazing day, the sky was a bright blue, the clouds were everywhere in groups and the birds were just flowing in the breeze. All I could hear was the noise the tree made when the wind hit it, the rattling the leaves made, the loud engine of a car.... A CAR? I snapped out of my relaxation and pulled my back forwards, still having my butt on the beanbag. 

Dad is the more bossy one. You'd think because I was the first born I'd be his 'little girl'- WRONG! I'm the one that has to lead an example, if I do one thing wrong; I'm dead meat! I literally  jumped down the ladder and ran down the opposite street that my Dad was coming from. It was only about 15 minutes of walking till I remembered, my phone was on charge...great. I went to the beach to try and relax again, I've been to many beaches and i can honestly say; ours is the best! 

The sand was soft, but thick enough to make a sandcastle, the ocean was a beautiful colour. It wasn't just one colour either, it was all different beachy blue colours. There were no surf gangs, but there were groups. The groups were just stereotypes, typical stereotypes. Although some of groups fought, it wasn't as bad as in the city! 

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I'm well liked at my, in my town. Okay, yes, I'm popular here! But I also get along with everyone, when I think about it... maybe that's why I'm popular? It doesn't bother me, I consider it to be a lucky thing to have. I can walk around the corner and see a friend, if I'm alone and see someone- BAM... not anymore! Most importantly, if I'm feeling down there's always someone I can go to for help!

Most of the families here go on holiday till school starts, to meet all their other friends from the camping places they stay at. So there's barely anyone here at the moment and the ones that are, either get on my nerves or they're like my brother! When I'm at the beach I see Bryce De Jon Jay, what a name right? He is the perfect prime example of people who get on my nerves! 

"Hey beautiful, if I knew you were here, I would of done my best moves,".Ummm, what? If that's his pick up line, I don't even want to know the chicks he 'picks up' . He just stands there, with his hands around his board, water dripping from all over. I admit, he is really good looking, shame he has a shit personality. 

I laughed so hard on the inside, but gave a smirk on the outside, "Really? Well I've watched for some time now, that I thought they were your best moves." 

"You've been watching me?" he smiled back, laughing a little at the end of his sentence. Any other person would be so embarrassed, but I've known him too long to let him make me feel that way.

I stand up, brush the sand off me and stare right in his eyes, his perfect ocean blue eyes. "Sorry i've --"

"Got to go!" I screamed, hoping someone would hear me. How could they? I'm so far away from everything I know. It's day time now, but I'm somewhere dark. Not literally, mentally. He just wouldn't understand, I didn't want him! I'm not like every brain dead chick here! I quickly walked past him, but he grabbed my arm. My heart just started to beat faster and harder; I was scared now, for real.

"Sorry, but the date isn't over!" he said in a controlling manner. He pulled me towards him, i tried to struggle but not nearly enough as I should have! He kissed me, with his disgusting lips, how would anyone even want to kiss them? He led us to his car, the last thing I touched as an innocent person was the side of his car.

I hate knowing that i just gave in so easy, I didn't even try to get away! I feel worthless, cheap, disgusting! I guess I'm just like those brain dead girls! I wouldn't call this, what you think it is. I just didn't want my new friends to think I was some goody two shoes! We just kissed for a while, but then he was getting ready, and kissed me again. I thought to myself 'got--

"to go. Bye D double Jay" I said while walking up the sand hill. I just smiled to myself, with innocence. 

EXPLAIN: yes, Lara did had sex with this boy. I just didnt want to be so foward with it until i was up to that in future chapters. Lara is not a virgin, but she is not a slut, when she is thinking "got--" she was wondering if he had it in yet. i thought i would clear that up for anyone that was wondering. :) Mx.