Stockholm syndrome

Was it my fault?

Once i finish cleaning myself up after staying the night at Christians, i walk into the living room. 

"Sorry if i was a bit of the dick the other day" i say to Christian

"i don't care" he says in somewhat of an angry voice but what did i do.. i didn't do anything i don't think but it seems like i have?

I scoot myself over to Christian and put my hand on his thigh "did i do something wrong?" i ask him but he just gets up and walks over to the door and...opens it? "fuck off." he says to me. What the hell did i do to deserve that sort of treatment? 

"fuck you then"- i say to him and he looks at me and just slams the door. 

"what did you just say to me you stupid boy"-he says grabbing my face and pushing me against the wall.

"here we go again with the stupid b-" before i can finish my last word he slaps me and pushes me to the ground. 

"Atticus if you ever speak to me like that again i will kill you, now get the fuck out of my house you stupid little boy" he says whilst making eye contact, i pick my phone up and run to my apartment in utter disbelief. 

'why would he do that to me...i need to find a way to leave this place, quick and fast' i think to myself as i'm making my way downstairs into my apartment. After finally reaching my door i quickly run in, mistakenly not shutting the door properly on my way in and rush to my bedroom. I quickly try to grab my phone as i hear the door slam...is it him?

Before i'm even able to shut the door he barges his way past me with rope and..a gag?

"why are you here?" i ask him but he says nothing

then a few moments later he punches me...?

i fall to the ground as he quickly rushes towards me, tying my hands and legs together. i don't know what i've done to deserve this, i try to speak but he's already found a way to put the gag on my mouth but for what reason... 

i know he said he wanted me and he'd do anything to get me but i didn't think this was what he meant or maybe this was exactly what he meant and i just didn't process it fast enough.

i'm stupid.