Precious (Lil Peep x Reader)

Focus

[Y/N Pov]

I walked back to class, parting with Clem and Gus. I only had about an hour left until I could go home. I couldn't focus on class, I just wanted to go home. But I'd be lying if I said getting home was the only thing on my mind.

"...And that's why we get the answer of..." the teacher paused for a moment. "Y/N?"

I looked up as quickly as possible. "H-Huh?"

"What's the answer?" the teacher asks impatiently.

"I-It's," I pause to stumble through my notes, but I just wasn't paying attention. I let out a long sigh. "I don't know." I feel so disappointed in myself, I should've been paying attention. No pity for me, it's my own fault.

"Pay attention from now on, Y/N." I nod.

The bell rings and I dash for the door, kids crowd everywhere and I rush out due to my anxiety. I was distracted by Gus the whole time in class. I couldn't stop thinking about his face, his hair, his smile, his laugh. His...perfections. I sigh, and head to the bus. I knew Gus and Clem would be here any minute, I headed to the back. Before I knew it they appeared, and I saw them both walking down the isle. I leaped and waved my arm signaling them to come over. They walked over and sat across from me.

"Can I sit here?" Gus asked. Felt good to not be the only one trembling, because oh boy did he look like he was about to faint.

"WORLD STAR!" Clem yells. I chuckle.

"Sure," I say, moving my bag out of the way. I smile.

The boy sits down next to me, a smile across his face. His eyes lock on mine for a few moments, my heart beats faster. My legs shake. Fucking stop it, Y/N. He's looking at you, can't you see?! Oh what the hell, that's the reason as to why I'm trembling. He's...still...looking at me! Stop! I'm ugly, what's there to stare at. I get so insecure, my face turns red and I break the stare and look out the window, covering my face. That was so fucking embarrassing that I don't think I can even look at him after that. I hear Clem laugh on the other side.

"Is it hot in here, or is it just me?" She asks, bursting out laughing.

"Shut up," Gus says, moving to nudge her. I laugh under my breath.

The bus ride was long, loud, and tiring. I had a horrible headache by now, due to all the screaming and laughing. I felt a nudge on my shoulder, so used to it being Clem I quickly looked over, surprised to find Gus' eyes locking on mine for about .4 seconds. Shit, how could I forget about what just happened 5 minutes ago so damn quickly? No turning back now.

"Sorry," he says. I notice Clem is gone, we already passed her stop? Damn I was really lost in my thoughts. I look up at him since he's taller than me.

"About...?"

"Well-uh...staring...I guess. Sorry for staring earlier, and about 5 minutes ago. It's just," he scratches his neck. "I don't know how else to say it. It's just the fact that you're...well...fucking gorgeous," He hesitates to say, but somehow confidently says. I was stunned, my legs crossed over each other, and I felt my face getting hot. Me...? Gorgeous? To him...? I...what? I began to fiddle my legs together, I was shaking. I was...I was...a trembling mess. He grabbed my arm, I couldn't feel his skin against mind because I had a coat on, but I could feel his hand grab my arm. I looked at him. I felt okay now, I was fine. I let loose, I was so tense.

"It's okay," he said so quietly, my eyes closed for some reason. Just the way I felt when he was there holding my arm so carefully, I wanted to just fall asleep. After I closed my eyes, I fell onto his shoulder, and that's all I remember. It went dark after that.

[Gus' Pov]

"It's okay," I say delicately, and her eyes closed. Uhhm. She fell onto my shoulder and it looked painful as fuck, but she passed out alright. Thing is, I was about 2 minutes away from my stop with a beautiful girl passed out on my shoulder. Do I let her peacefully sleep and risk missing our stop, or do I wake her up from her beauty sleep and walk off with her? I couldn't think, the smell of her faint perfume, her [h/l] [h/c] hair on my skin comforted me. I just wanted to hold her, but the bus stopped. I woke her up quickly, but she blinked a few times and nudged back on my shoulder. I grabbed her arm and dashed down the isle. She was struggling to keep up. I exited the bus, and stepped into the few patches of snow still remaining on the dry, dead grass. She was latched onto my arm and noticed, and apologized. It was okay, it's not like I minded it at all.

"Well, I'm sorry for falling asleep on your shoulder," she chuckled after I told her what happened.

"It's 'aight," I reply. "Not like I minded. Anyways, my house is here so. I better go. Wanna come in real quick?" I ask hesitantly.

She took a moment to think. "Well, I suppose for a few minutes. But I really have to get home before my mom worries." I nod.