If Only

If only you knew what you did,

Would you even care?

If only you knew of the hurt,

Would you have changed?

If only you knew of the scars,

Would you help?

If only

If only

If only

If only I listened,

Would you have stayed?

If only I didn't push you away,

Would we have fought?

If only I had been there for you,

Would you still talk to me?

If only

If only

If only

If only I was a better friend,

We wouldn't be where we are.

If only I knew how to communicate better,

I wouldn't be crying every night.

If only I could trust better,

We would still talk.

If only

If only

If only

If only I ask myself,

Could I have saved our friendship?

If only I ask you,

Could this have been avoided?

If only I ask us,

Did we know this was coming?

If only

If only

If only

If only I could tell you,

Would you know,

Would you understand,

That you will always be my best friend,

No matter the outcome?

If only you knew,

The happiness

The smiles

The laughs

As I think of you again.

If only you knew the joy

As we sat and talked

That day on the bench

That overlooked the river.

If only you knew

Of the light you added

In the darkness of night,

As I pleaded for help

As you promised to never leave

So long as you were needed.

If only my best friend

Had stayed my best friend

And not the best friend

That had left

But the best friend

I will ever know.

If only

If only

If only

If only

IF ONLY

If only you could see

The joy that you brought me

Instead of the pain

That I had grown to know.

If only we realized what we had

And not what we didn't have

Not what we wanted

But what we needed.

If only

If only

If only the thoughts would leave my head,

Then I would be able to honor your only request...