Gangs, Love and War

Chapter 22: is it love??

Ryder's P.O.V

She ran. She ran ? Those two words kept running through my mind over and over again as if like a scratched CD stuck on a single single line.

I sat down in the driver's seat of my car and started the Engen. I drove out of the school gates and just drove.

I didn't know where I was going. Well to be honest I didn't really care I just needed time alone.

I parked and got out of the car . I looked around and realised that I've driven to the place where me and Jenn first had a real solid conversation.( Chapter 13: those snakes)

I sat down at the big rock next to the river banks. I stared at the water running freely in the river. I wish I could be like that.

Running freely without a care in the world. Not having to deal with the gang, Jennifer, Feelings and most importantly my feelings towards Jennifer.

I don't know what these feelings are but every time I see her something in my stomach would crawl. Every time I touch her it would be as if that simple touch would ignite a fire within me.

I needed to talk to her I know she feels the same . Her eyes would always give her away.

That's the thing about a persons eyes you can tell alot by just one look. You can tell thier whole life story with the pattern of the little specks scattered across thier eyes.

I stood up and walked to my car ihave to tell Jenn about how I feel.

~~~~~~~At Jenn's house~~~~~~~~

I knock on the white wooden door infront of me and wait for an answer.

After sometime I here someone coming downstairs towards the door .

The door opens to reveal a very small, blonde woman wearing a blue plaid dress and black pumps.

" Hello where you here for miss King?" The woman asked opening the door wider.i mumble a quick 'yes' and get in.

She goes upstairs and I hear a door open. After some time Jenn walks in wearing a white over sized shirt and some cute bunny slippers.

Fuck she looks so fucking adorable.

"H-hi Ryder w-what are you doing here?" She asked while biting her plump lower lip.

I could feel myself getting harder by the minute.

" I need to talk to you Jenn. Please?" I asked . She looked up at me and nodded for me to follow her.

We climbed up the stairs and into her room. I sat down on the bed and fiddled with the hem of  my shirt. I looked up at her to find her already staring expectantly at me.

" Jenn . I-i don't know how to say this but everytime I see you my palms get sweaty and my stomach does these summersolts that I can't even explain." I pause and stand up and start packing the room.

"I don't know , Jenn but everytime you touch me it ignites a fire within me and I feel all hot and sweaty and arkward. Jenn I think I love you." I finish and turn to face her .

She was looking at me with wide eyes.

We stared at each other for the longest of times until she finally spoke.

"What if we are mistaken , thinking love comes in the form of a soul quenching madness? The type that normalises madness and strips you to your core, leaving you in a euphoric yet ephemeral haze?" She said as she fiddled with her long , shiny hair.

I was lost for words . I don't know what I should say or do, I know that I love and need her but how should I say it?

" You know what Ryder? Just get out."