Destruction

Part 1

Have you ever felt so lonely and unwanted you started to wish for bad things to happen to you, even though you know for a fact you don't want for any of those things to happen to you? Well for the past 14 years that is what has been going on with me.  Ugh! Sorry, I forgot to introduce myself properly, again. Well, my name is Arthur Angel Feeney! I'm actually getting ready for my birthday in a couple more months, but then again I'd be turning 18 and then I will have to marry Alpha Alonzo Russo Ricci. Do you want to know the funning thing? Of course, you do! (even if you don't.) He is actually my 11 years crush. Yep! You heard me right! Well, I should say I fell in love with him at first sight when I had just turned 5.

*Flashback*

"I wonder who mommy and daddy want me to meet Nana," I said to my Nurse. She turned her head to look down at me and said, " Do you remember last night when I read you Cinderella?" Me being my five-year-old self yelled out "YES!"," So you remember when Cinderella and her prince got married?" "Yes!" " Well, today you get to meet your prince!" She exclaimed My five-year-old self was just so happy by the thought, the thought of having my own prince I was so excited. When my Nurse and I got to the garden my mother came up to me. " Honey," she said," I would like for you to meet Alonzo Ricci, he will be your future husband dear." She then stepped out of the way and that was when I first saw him.  He came up to me and kissed my hand. At that moment I fell in love with him. He reintroduced himself and told me he was 9. For the rest of the day, with a little bit pleading on my part and my mother's approval, Alonzo and I ran around or I should say I ran around dragging him places. During that day I showed him all my secret hiding places and favorite things to do all through my house.

*Present* 

But after he turned 14 it all changed. He went from loving and nice to hateful and angry. A month after his 14th birthday when we met for a day of hanging out he got angry out of nowhere when I went to drag him into another of my adventures. He got so mad at me he slapped me and yelled so many bad and hateful words at me I didn't know what to do except to cry. As the years went on after that, he started to bully me and when I turned 14 I snapped but of not at him. How could I snap at him when he was just telling the truth about me. I was a fat slutty worthless whore. (Even though I never did it with anyone because I wanted to save myself for him.) I really snapped at myself and I worked to fix myself. I just hope he will be happy when he sees me for the first time in a couple months. Cause you know those feelings, right? The one were you'd do anything for the person your in love with.

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