I wanna be His Boy

Tomorrow is only the Second Day

I whimpered feeling numb all around my body. I tried to move, but then the pain came. My eyes slowly opened. It was sort of blurry. My head hurt really bad, as did my foot. I sat up slowly and looked at the clock on the wall. It was 8:02. When I got home it was only 3:30. I have been out of it for almost five hours. I took off my sock remembering my foot. I could see blood drenching my sock. I stood up and walked upstairs to the bathroom to clean up my foot. I pulled the long glass pieces up listening for my dad. I heard only snoring. Thank god. The slices on my foot were huge, but I had worse. I took a quick shower. I went to my room and grapped a shirt and a pair of shorts. This is fine I thought. I moved my neck to the side and saw two deep large bruises. Fuck. This was very noticeable. I had to cover it up tomorrow. It actually had his finger prints in it. After, I quickly cleaned it out with alcohol and wrapped it up. I went downstairs quietly and took a broom. Needed to get it clean before dad woke up. 

A half an hour later the place was clean. It wasn't a large place. I took some bread with cheese and ham up to my room. I grabbed my bookbag on the way. I flopped onto my bed aftter locking my door. This fucking sucks. I hate this place. I took my bookbag to grab my paci. It was not in its pocket. I frantically looked for it. It was not there. Where is it? I whimpered not knowing where it was. Maybe Ashton found it. Omg no. I quickly pulled out my phone and it was about 9 o'clock now. I saw a lot of messages from Ashton asking me if I was home and how I was. I sighed. 

Hey, Ashton can I ask you a question? Very quickly he replied with yes. I bit my lip hoping he didn't find it. Did you uh..find something when I dropped all my stuff out earlier? I waited for a response. I knew I had another one under my pillow, but that was my favorite one. I felt a buzz. But it wasn't him. It was Jordan. My breath hitched as I quicked on it. 

On Thursday, you are just going to go home with me. Then, I will drop you off. Hope that's chill. 

I replied yeah that's fine. I smiled I will be going over his house. I will get to spend time with him. I frowned remembering George. Oh wait. I guess this won't be so exciting.  Shit, Tomorrow is Wednesday so I need to go over there the next day. Jordan didn't respond. I felt another buzz. It was Ashton. I closed my eyes and clicked on the message peaking. 

Yes I did.... We will talk about it tomorrow when we hang out. I shook with fear. I did not respond to that message. I felt my phone buzzing. 

Carter..answer me. Do you want to still hang out? I shook my head and took my binki out from under my pillow. I just wanted to regress. I held my minecraft creeper close to me with my blue baby blanket. I felt my eyes shutting. I was so warm right now. My head hurt so much. I just wanted to sleep...

I woke up to my alarm clock. I sighed softly getting ready. It's only the second day of school and I am so tired. I got dressed in a short sleeve shirt and sweatpants. I went into the bathroom to brush my teeth and saw the brusises. I  remembered about my foot too. I frowned and turned on some music. My favorite artist was called Lund. I played it on my headphones as I clean my foot out and rewrapped it. I went back in the room and put on a jacket witha hood. I pulled it up and put my new paci in my bag. I looked at my phone and I had a lot of messages from Ashton. I ignored them. I needed to ignore him today. I took my medicine for the day. I ran downstairs with my bag and put a water in there. I also grabbed a granola bar quickly. I left the house and realized dad's car wasn't there. He probably went to the liquor store. I started my walk to school. The artist Aftertheparty came on. I loved their one song called numb. I smiled and kept listening. I ended up getting to school faster. I saw Emma there. I ran up to her. I tapped her shoulder softly. She smiled turning around screaming.