His Wife ✔️

32. Selfish?

*unedited

M A N I K

"You had a miscarriage!" I whisper shouted and immediately regretted every word I spoke looking at the colour of her face drain away as she took a step behind.

Her hand reached the bed for support and she looked devoid of any emotion. I was never supposed to tell her this. How could I?

"No Manik— you— you're lying! I couldn't be a mother again... tum— tum jhoot bol rahe ho na?" She sobbed, looking just as shocked as I was when doctor informed this to me.

"Yes! Yes, I am lying... I'm sorry I'm lying!" I lied again as I sat, leaning in front of her.

I tried holding both her hands in me but she pushed me away, nodding negatively.

"Nahi, Manik! You have to tell me. What miscarriage? How can I be a mother again?" She was hyperventilating and I felt so guilty to hurt her this way.

"Okay... shhh, calm down!" I held her in my arms as I sat beside her and she kept her sobbing head on my chest.

How I wish on times like this that I could hold her close and make every pain of hers disappear in thin air.

How I wish I could hug her broken parts until she mended again.

How I wish only the best for her but always end up hurting her in an irreparable way.

"Bolo na Manik! Tum chup kyu ho?" She cried holding my tee and I realised I had zoned out again.

"Haa!" I agreed slowly, knowing what I was going to tell her might break her the way it broke me for months.

"You know, few months back... I had arranged a date for both of us—....," I smiled thinking of all the arrangements I had made, I was returning back from my music tour after a month and although I missed my children more than anyone, I knew I miserably needed a 'me and Nandini' time because only she could give me the warmth I require and take away all my tiredness in a few seconds.

"And you cancelled it saying you had a business meet which was supposedly more urgent then me! You left me at the place alone, Manik! You know I neglected I felt?" She pouted sobbing and I wish I could tell her how sorry I was until now for what I had done but I had no other option.

"Yes, And that it is because the doctor called me up! She said—.... that you were pregnant!" I whispered and she sighed, a tear rolled down her eye and she clutched me tighter.

"I was as shocked as you were so I immediately went to the doctor's clinic, she told me not to tell you about it because it was complexed and there was hardly any chance that our miracle baby would survive, so there was no point giving you fake hopes!" I told her and I could just wonder how it would be for her to know all this like a story when in real the baby was inside her for two whole months before it disintegrated.

"She said this was nothing less than a miracle, only one in million cases happen this way. You know you and the kids go for daily check ups every six months right? So co-incidentally, your check up was just that month and she could see the egg inside you, it was small and just one month old, but she wasn't sure so she waited for the rest results and called me instead, and left it upon me to tell you," I whispered.

Ever since my kids were born, Nandini and both of them go for regular check ups every six months because of their complex case, the doctor checks if there is any cyst formation in Nandini's ovary and a normal check for the kids to know they're all okay and normal. But that very time, instead of cysts, the doctor saw a fertile egg.