a promise meant to be kept *jmb*

s i x

*Maya's pov*

Sitting there hand in hand with joey I was trying to recollect what the hell just happened.

"Maya?"

"Hmm joey"

"I like you"

"I like you to"

"You make me happy Maya heart"

"You to Mr.birlem"

And we just sat there in silence. Me snuggled into joeys chest while he played with my hair until we both dosed off.

--

I woke up and everything around me was dark. I tried to get up but I felt something heavg on top of me weighing me down, so I couldn't move. I started freaking the fuck out and having a panic attack.

"Oh my God"
"Oh my God
"Oh my God
"Oh my God
"Oh my God
"Oh my God
"Oh my God
"Oh my Go-"

"Maya? Is that you?"

"J-joey?"

"Yeah? Are you okay? Oh my God your shaking"

But I couldn't stop crying. I was sobbing and I was shaking so hard that my knee kept on hitting the floor causing it to make a loud thud.

"Maya, listen to the sound of my voice. I want you to listen to me okay?"

"B-but -"

"Shhhhhh, no buts. Just listen"

*joeys pov*

I'm kind of freaking out right now. I don't know what to do. Mayas having a panic attack and I'm trying to calm her down but its not working. I wonder why she has these . I feel so bad.

"Maya listen, I need you to breathe. Can you do that for me please?"

"Uh-h huh-"

"Okay good job your doing amazing Maya. Now I'm going to count to ten and I want you to breathe in.

"1"
"2"
"3"
"4"
"5"
"6"
"7"
"8"
"9"
"10"

I took Maya's hands and held them in between mine. I picked her up and sat her on my lap. She was still all curled up in a ball trembling super hard. I picked up the blanket and wrapped it around us.

"Okay good. Your doing great."
Now hold it for three"

"1"
"2"
"3"

"I'm so proud of you Amaya. Your the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me and I want you to know that. Nothing you do could ever make me stop caring for you like I do. I'm not going to let anything happen to you ever again. Nobody's going to hurt you I promise your safe with me."

I rocked Maya back and forth in my lap as she continued to cry. I don't understand what could have possibly brought this on. I drew circles on her back as she still shook and hyper ventilated.

I spoke in a very light whisper

"Maya, can you tell me what happened?"

"M-my bes-t f-friend An-na d-died tw-o months ag-go."  She cried

" I'm so sorry mya. I bet you miss her so much. And I know you love her and I'm sure she loved you. How did she die?"

"She killed her self joey! And its all my fault!" She screamed as she twisted the back of my shirt into a knot in between her trembling fingers.

"Oh my god maya . There's no way it could have been your fault. I'm sure you were loving and kind and that you did everything in your power to be the greatest best friend ever."

" But thats the thing , i wasn't. I should have listened more. This is all my fault, i should have known."

"But may-"

"Joey she slit her fucking wrist and bled to death in the bath tub for fuck sake! I knew she had been cutting and I threatened to tell her mom If she didn't stop but she made me promise I wouldn't! Don't you see, if I would have told her mom, or answered her calls instead of being a selfish bitch then maybe I'd still have a best friend and maybe her mom would have a damn daughter." she colapsed and every sound in the room was drownt out by her sobs.

I just sat there in complete silence, wordless on what exactly to say to this girl, who had been broken beyond repair. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I kept rubbing the back of her hand with the pad of my thumb as she sobbed silent cries into my shoulder.

As we sat there I observed how her body heaved up and down when she'd breathe in and out. And that's when I knew I had to fix this girl someway somehow.

"Maya, some people just can't take the world around them anymore. I mean take a look at what goes on everyday. Schools and churches get shot up, women get raped, children get kidnapped and beat. But sometimes you've got to block out the bad and focus on the good for a change. And I'm not saying from time to time that your not aloud to have "your days" just not everyday."

(A/n - its 11:11 hoes)  AND AGAIN AS I WAS EDITING THIS 3 MONTHS LATER AND JUST READ WHERE I HAD WROTE ITS 11:11 ITS FUCKING 11:11 AGAIN! WHAT KIND OF WITCH CRAFT I-

"J-joey"

"Yeah Maya"

"Your the best"

"I know"

"And hey Maya"

"Hmmm?" She said sleepily

"I think one day I'm gonna love you."

But all joey heard were light snores.

Wassup bitches :) back at it! Ya girls on fire btw. 6 chapters in one day. Litty titty
be bold hoes,
Kenzi