A Lifetime To Love You

Her POV 1

He is so cute!

I've known him since kindergarten and I know it is impossible to have a crush since mommy said that I was too young. I told mommy about him and she simply laughed and told me to memorize my colors and numbers.

"You should give him a reason why he should give you some attention." Mommy told me this when I was in second grade. We were class mates again this year. I remember when I realized he wasn't my class mate while we were in first grade. I was disappointed then. But I still did my best to search for him during recess. But he's in the play ground with his friends playing cops and robbers.

I never had the courage to approach him that way. But I really liked him, I watched the sun shine against his hair. His blue eyes, sparkle with laughter and his cheeks were rosy and his teeth, though tooth gaped, a total rascal, he never failed to make my heart beat fast.

It was only too bad that he never once looked my way. He might have once or twice when I had to get on the stage in school during award giving day or in some school play. He had smiled at me a couple of times. I thought the day had a second sunrise whenever he did.

Middle school came and went and not once we became class mates. We still shared the same school but, our paths rarely crossed.

It was just too bad when high school came, he transferred to a different school to a different city. Mother, who supported my one sided romance was disappointed for me. She knew how much love I felt for the him, my blue eyed wonder boy. Only that the affection wasn't returned since I never had the courage to make it known.

High school was pretty much a dull period for me. My friends went on dates and parties here and there. Some of them experienced more than they should with their dates. I could only smile and somewhat envy them. There were some boys who tried to become more than friends with me. But I didn't have the heart to lead them on. I was not ready to entertain any suitors, I was still mourning my love story that never happened.

Graduation day and an unexpected guest came. I was surprised to see him standing inside the school grounds looking at the rows of trophies. He was also dressed in a suit. He sure did look dreamy. I bit my lower lip and swallowed the big amount of fear I had in my throat and invested the little courage that I had to talk to him.

"Hey! You're here!" A girl in my class approached him from the other side of the hall. "Wow, you look hot!" Were the words she said and pulled his head down for a kiss. I had to bite my lips and forced myself to walk away, nursing my wounded heart.

"So, it was him, you have been in love with him for so long," my friends said, as they watched me walked away from the heart breaking scene.

I forced myself not to cry. I could only nod and squeezed my friend's hand. Then I noticed a gleaming rock on her finger. "Oh my! Is this wise?" I asked.

Knowing my cautious nature my friend sighed, "Sometimes, you just have to leave it up to faith." She looked into my dull brown eyes, "You on the other hand, have to move on. There are plenty of fish in the sea. And you are going to sunny California!"

I forced myself to smile. I almost forgot, mother and I are both moving to California. My father was already there, he was just here to pick my mother and I up. I sighed and forced myself to look towards the future. "Yeah, California, maybe I can get the attention of some hot men."

With that admission, my friends could only laugh at me. They didn't think I could open up to a guy just like the next girl. I was still painfully shy like that.

College was a different ball game for me. I was accepted in theater school. I didn't know why I chose to become an actress. Sure I had the skills, but I didn't know if I had the courage to sell myself in showbiz. I would probably become a drama and arts teacher after a very short lived career.