Afire Love

I'm A Mess

Oh I'm a mess right now inside out,

Searching for a sweet surrender

But this is not the end

It has been six years since the accident and I still blame myself. I should have watched out for Luke. Before we left mum told me to watch over him.

I obviously failed terribly.

When Luke tripped, he fell head first into the tree so hard that it cracked his skull.

Luke always did have the worst luck.

The fall pushed his skull into his brain. It's a miracle he is even alive, but the bad news is he has been in a coma ever since. The doctors are thinking of taking him off of life support because they don't think he's ever going to wake up. Everyone has given up, everyone except me that is. Every day I come and visit Luke and talk to him; I read online that the person can hear you even if they're in a coma. A couple months ago I decided to tell him about what's going on in the outside world; how school is going, friends, just life in general and about everything he's missing.

And every single day that passes, I notice I'm falling more and more in love with his peaceful face. I don't know what it is, I think about him so much that it hurts. His face grows more and more masculine everyday, and his lips look so kissable.

I figured out a while ago that I was gay, when I had a dream about Luke and after that dream, my whole perspective on Luke changed. I loved him more than a friend, more than a brother. Which is why I will never give up on Luke. Once I give up on Luke it means giving up on love, and I'm too selfish to do that.

I know that Luke will wake up one day.

And I'm a mess just thinking about it.