My only wish this year | h.js x l.mh

i'll be waiting here

23.12.16

i hope my letter reaches you in time

jisung thought it would be easier to win minho's heart since he was in high school now, he's in his second year so he had a sliver of hope that minho would stop seeing him as a kid friend (or a childhood friend/brother). he had high hopes, but boy did they come crashing down two weeks ago.

minho had come into the house (wearing his usual school outfit, jeans and a tee shirt) with a huge smile on his face, growing ever since he'd walked through the door. when jisung had asked him why he was so smiley, he responded with 'chan asked me on a date'.

jisung congratulated him and told him he'd help him get ready, pick out clothes and makeup and shoes and tell him how to behave. he wasn't happy, not one bit, but he couldn't really do anything about it. two days later he finds himself in minho's closet searching for some clothes that would fit a movie date, but not be girl's clothes.

twenty minutes later and jisung finds ripped jeans and a black tee shirt and takes it to minho. minho thanks him with a kiss on the cheek and hops into the clothes before shoving converse onto his feet and styling his hair (and of course, a man needs his eye liner). he leaves shortly after when chan beeps his horn notifying them both that he's here to pick minho up.

-

jisung watches tv emotionless, pretending he's sitting next to minho in that movie theater. he's been at this for a good and solid two hours now so he's not shocked when he sees the headlights of chan's car shine through the driveway, chan choosing to walk minho up the walkway.

jisung does shutter when chan leans in and minho follows suit, cheeks heating up but pecking him on the lips quickly and walking in the door. jisung fumes, nobody should be able to touch minho like that besides him- nobody should kiss minho like that but him.

minho walks into the house and tells jisung that chan's asked minho to be his boyfriend (and that he said yes). jisung congratulates him halfheartedly, a few tears spewing out when minho leaves the room. he eventually goes upstairs and falls asleep next to minho, keeping his hands to himself because he's no homewrecker.

bring me love i can call mine

jisung's extremely patient, and he's let so many things slide but this is definitely not one of them. he's furious, maybe it's not rightfully so but he doesn't care. he's livid, past the point of no return and it's all because of them.

he's dealt with so much, watched minho and chan do so many things together and kept his mouth shut. he's seen them holding hands at school and feeding each other and for god's sakes jisung's seen chan push minho against the nearest set of lockers and kiss him like his life was going to end (which was unnecessary if you'd asked him what he thought). he's seen chan try to play tonsil hockey and minho flinch, trying to get chan to slow down and be gentler (you wouldn't have to worry if it was me- shut up jisung, let him be happy).

so in conclusion, he's put up with a lot of things, but walking into his room and seeing chan on his bed cuddling his minho was quite possibly the most atrocious thing he's ever seen. who does bang chan think he is because he's most certainly not the king of this castle. this house belongs to jisung's parents, this room belongs to jisung.

jisung is about to leave, but then something catches his attention. minho's wearing that choker necklace with the bows on it, and he hears the exact same thing minho told him last year. 'i'm your present this year', except this time minho looked chan dead in the eyes and never once looked away. there were hickeys littering his minho's neck, given to him probably by chan and jisung didn't like it one bit.

he had to walk out of the room, tears streaming down his face ad he walks to the hall closet and grabs a pillow and blanket because you'd be damned if you thought he'd sleep in that bed without the bedding washed after chan leaves.

cause i have been so good, so good this year

jisung's sitting on the couch watching spongebob when minho's mom comes into the room.

'jisung, honey-'

'yes ma'am'

'green suits you, you should wear it more'

jisung flushes bright in embarrassment, not knowing what to say about getting caught being jealous of chan. minho's mom sits down next to jisung, pulling him in a hug and starting to speak up.

'honey, i know you're worried about him and his decision'

'mrs. lee-'

'i know you think chan isn't good enough for him'

'i-'

'yeah, i know. i don't like the chan boy either'

'you don't-'

'no, my boy deserves way better than that, but just because you want minho to find the right person doesn't mean you get to glare at chan every given second'

'i know, but at the end of the day, if chan makes minho happy then that's all that matters. minho's happiness comes before everything else.'

'jisung?'

'mrs. lee'

minho's mom looks at jisung, tears threatening to spill over her eyes and fall freely.

'i need to ask you something'

'okay'

'answer honestly'

'okay'

'you're in love with my son aren't you'

'i- yes'

mom and dad,

minho's mom found me being jealous of chan. and she's right i have no right to be mad at chan for taking minho away and taking all of his time and money. i still don't like the chan guy. but minho deserves to be happy.

this year for christmas i just want minho to be 100% happy and if being with chan makes him feel like that then i hope he stays with that little piece of shit.

also minho's mother asked me if i loved him and i said yes. please help me, i need to try to get over these feelings i have for minho because chan and minho look like they're going to last long and all i can do is pray that minho stops finding him so 'dreamy'

sincerely,

your goodest and saddest boy