Only Then

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Taehyung's pov 

I saw her gaping at me, doe eyes blankly staring, her big dark eyelashes curled up, still wet with tears, and her pink supple lips looked so beautiful I thought I was in a dreamworld. But no, this is real. She is that beautiful but it's not her outer beauty that is all to her. She is way more than that. And I could spend the whole night telling her about it but not today. Today I had to clear all misunderstandings which took her away from me anyhow. I wiped her tears and gave her a reassuring smile. 

"Hyun-ah if I tell you everything, would you listen to me till the end and let me explain?" 

"Yes" she said unsure of what I was talking about. How adorable!

But I couldn't look her in the eyes and say why I decided to leave whatever we had between us and that too without any explanation. I was hurt doing so too but the pain I caused her was beyond what I felt. With no explanation, I had just sent her a text saying I can't talk to her anymore. I know she would have hated me all this time while I was away but she still let me in during my bad times. This is what makes her so special. Always putting others before her own, that's joohyun.

"Joohun-ah I didn't want to leave you. It's just that the circumstances made me do so. But I'm willing to let it all out to you, if that'd make you trust me again. I want everything to be like before. I like you. For real." And with that I teared up again. I had buried this in my heart for so long, I didn't know it'd hurt it that bad.

"Sshhh... It's okay." She held my face in her small hands and wiped my years away. 

"You don't have to explain me everything right now. You...didn't leave me by choice, that's all I wanted to know. I thought I wasn't what you wanted, and it hurt me because I really like you too taehyung." 

We hugged each other with all that we had. I buried my head in the crook of her neck and put my arms around it. She put hers around me too. I could smell her mint shampoo from her jet black hair, that she had let down. 

"Okay so tell me what happened to you today. You coming to my dorm this late, in this weather couldn't be cuz of something that happened months ago, right?" She asked still hugging me.

I bit my lip in acceptance. 

"My dongsaengs told me off today. They complained I was just enjoying my own life and didn't think of them or our family."

"Joohyun you know how much I love my family and care for them, hearing this just broke my heart into pieces. I don't want to put their lives into limelight because I care for them. They would have to deal with everything I deal with. Their lives won't be their own then."

"And because of that I don't visit them that often or look into their matters. Cuz everything I do is put under scrutiny and that might expose them to this life too." I let out everything still hugging her, unable to make eye contact.

I know it seems trivial to be this worked up for this small of a matter but, I can't help it. My close ones are the most important for me and if my family also doesn't understand me, I can't handle that. 

"Aigoo you're such a good kid!" She said looking at me lovingly and pulled away from the hug. But I knew she'd make fun of me so I was still pouting. 

"Taehyung-ah...don't worry about it so much. They just said it in the heat of the moment. They didn't mean any of it. Your family loves you a lot and they know how much you do for them. It might be that they'd have been hurt by something else. Whatever it is, I feel you can talk about it and solve."  

"Okay." I said awestruck. How can she say exactly what would comfort me? She knows me too much. 

As if a magic spell had worked on me, I felt completely fine after listening to her. She's my medicine and I need her, all my life. 

It was then, when I noticed that her nightdress was a bit too exposing and looked away, gulping my saliva. 

I saw the clock on her table and my mind went whoosh. It was 4 o'clock!!! 

I had left the dorm without saying anything and it's going to be very dangerous to sneak out of their dorm if the day breaks out. 

"I need to go. It's very late."

As if on cue, she said okay. 

"You can go freshen up in my washroom, I'll go bring something for you to eat." And with that she left the room. 

I went to her washroom, washed my face and came out. That's when I started looking around her room. This is the first time I had entered a girl's bedroom, besides my sister ofc. 

It's simple with minimal things, neatly arranged and decently decorated. Just like how joohyun likes. I saw the soft toy I had gifted her tucked under the blanket on her bed. 

I went outside to look for her but it was pretty dark everywhere. Guess everyone else is asleep. Good for me! As I was walking, I bumped into someone. It was Seulgi. Shoot. 

"Taehyung ssi? What are you doing here?"

"I..uh...joohyun will explain to you later."

"Oh okay" she said confusedly and was about to go back when I suddenly remembered about Jimin.

"Seulgi ssi! I had a favour to ask of you."

"Sure. What is it?"

"I know things didn't end well between you and Jimin but can you talk to him once, even if it's for saying goodbye? He's been really upset ever since you guys stopped talking, more like confused about all of it."

"Oh....is it? Okay I would try to. But I think he has changed his old number." She said timidly. 

"Oh I'll give you the new one." I put in jimin's new number to her phone and gave it back. 

She smiled and went back. 

Irene's pov 

I went outside and went straight to Wendy. I knew it'd be hard for him to go alone, so I asked her to call and ask hoseok to pick him up. She agreed at once and didn't ask me anything else. 

I went to the kitchen, made hot chocolate and took it with some cookies for taehyung. I know he hasn't eaten anything and it would anyways take hoseok an hour to reach our building. 

Just as I went out of the kitchen, I saw him talking to seulgi. I wonder what they talked about. He saw me (with hot chocolate and cookies) and came to me, jumping with his boxy smile, that I adored so much. At least the old taehyung was back. 

He was munching on his cookies when I remembered him saying why he left me. Yes, I wanted answers but this can wait. I just hope we don't part ways again. 

"I'm not gonna leave you again, if that's what you're thinking." He said still munching. 

Sorry, it is a bit late but it took me some time to think this through. I hope you guys like it, and don't forget to vote and comment!

Thanks to LilyWhalien and peppermism for reading my book ang giving their precious feedback on it. I would try to improve 💛