Only Then

~2

Irene's pov

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"Who would it be at this time of the night? All members are already in and certainly it won't be our manager. Did somebody invite a guest? Ugh I don't know. Let's just check" I thought to myself.

As I was getting up, I saw Wendy and we both shared confused looks. 

"Is anybody of us still outside?" I asked.

"No. Yerim is already asleep. Seulgi is in her room doing something and sooyoung is staying at her parents' for the weekend" she replied making sure she didn't leave out any of them. 

I wasn't sure myself but I went to check anyways. When I  saw Taehyung on the monitor near the door of my hall, I was taken aback. All the past memories came storming into my head and I could barely believe my eyes. I don't know what to call this feeling, I was angry at him for so long but I missed him so much too. When I saw him still staring at the bell camera, I could tell he figured out I was behind the door. We both kept staring at it for so long, Wendy had to remind me to open the door. I didn't want things to get awkward so I asked Wendy to go inside cuz first of all, we didn't invite guys to the dorm, esp this late and second of all, the members had no idea what happened between us so I didn't want them to get worked up on my personal issues cuz believe it or not, I like to keep things to myself. Now that I come to think of it, I had never mentioned our dorm address or made a mention that he could come to our dorm anytime he wanted. I was angrier now and ready to lash out on him. I breathed deeply and made sure I would open the door, rant to him on how he shouldn't have come and close the door immediately. I wasn't ready for any discussions, not now. I opened the door and there he was, probably surprised at how I opened the door, guess he would have thought that I would just let him stand outside in the cold until he himself gets tried of waiting and goes back. But who am I kidding? I could never do that, even though I am stubborn, I can't let him stay out in cold waiting for me, more so because I know he is even more stubborn and would keep on pressing the doorbell and you know how I said about making things awkward for my members, so yeah. 

Okay so back to him, he was still as ethereal as I remembered him to be. I saw him often on different occasions or at least through a screen, but it had been so long since I saw him this close. His piercing gaze felt like he was staring right at my soul and it was this moment I forgot everything I had thought of before opening the door for him. But today I could feel he wasn't just looking at me, he was telling me something through his eyes, something he couldn't say directly. I could feel him asking for comfort, like he had nobody else besides me. I know I might be overthinking but his eyes were almost begging me to understand whatever he had to say. At this point of time, I couldn't say no to him, even if I wanted, I just wanted to comfort him, just like he was asking me to do. He was freezing and in a moment I could see his eyes watering and lips quivering. I couldn't understand what was going on, it had been a long time since I opened the door and all we did was look at each other, something was definitely wrong and I was right. He just came storming and threw himself at me, hugging me close to himself, as if trying to take in all my warmth. I had no idea he was this big, I knew I was smaller than him but this difference was alarming. My heart was in a frenzy but I tried to calm down and come back to my senses. Something wasn't right with him ffs! In a few moments, he started sobbing and I was hurting seeing him like this. I patted his back slowly with my small arms which didn't even reach completely and said it was okay multiple times and I guess it worked, his whimpers were slowly dying out but I could see he had no intention of letting me go. So I took the opportunity and hugged him back, well this was our first hug, but it was definitely not what I had dreamed of. I could smell his cinnamon and lavender lotion( he didn't use perfumes) through his coat, and all I could feel from him was that he was freezing. I put all my thoughts aside and broke away from the hug first, he was surprised at the beginning but then followed me like a small kid obediently. I closed the door slowly, so that I don't wake others. I was not only breaking one but two of our house rules, which ironically I had set, taking him inside. But I had no other option, so I took him to my bedroom which unfortunately (and fortunately) Wendy saw and I could tell she was shocked out of her wits. I made sure he sat comfortably in my bed with a blanket properly wrapped around him before leaving him to talk to Wendy (I told him I was going to make him hot chocolate).