𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐆𝐎 • 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐔𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒

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George's POV
Me and Alex sat on the sofa.I sat there fiddling with my thumbs as Alex was just staring at me.I can feel his eyes burning holes inside my head.A couple minutes past until Alex breaks the silence."George,why didn't you tell me?"then shortly adds
"Or anyone infact.You know that me,will,James or anyone would listen"He says to me desperately as I don't reply.
"George please"his soft begging tone manages to make me speak.
"I'm ashamed,Alex.I don't want to go around telling people that I have to take happy drugs to make me not fall into a pit of sadness.I'm sorry I never told you."I explain to him and as I rant, I see his expression just fall into sadness.
"Is there anything I can do?"Alex asked,probably thinking in his head it's his fault as he always does.
"Alex,stop!Its not your fault; it's mine! I'm too messed up to not be happy anym-"but my rambling was cut off with Alex shouting.
"YOU'RE NOT MESSED UP, GEORGE!"His explosion shocks me into silence as he calms down and looks me in the eyes.
"Listen,you will get better okay?I don't care what you say.I am not losing my best friend to depression,I won't let that happen."As Alex's speech finishes,his phone rings.Its will.
"Put it on loud speaker"I demand him and as he follows my instructions I hear will's Geordie accent flowing out the phone.
"Hello,fella!"Will's excited voice exclaims.
"Hello! Your on loud speaker,George is here"Alex explains.
"Hello,George!"will says to me as I reply with "hello,will! What's up?"I ask.
"I was just thinking you and Alex would want to go out with me and James for a couple of beers tonight?"As Will explains, I can see Alex look defeated as he probably thinks I won't want to go out in this state but before he can't put his opinion, i put in "yeah mate! We would love to go!"I say trying to put as much enthusiasm as I can.
"Cool mate!Me and James will go to yours at 7:00pm?"He arranges with me.
"Yeah,mate"And once we exchange goodbyes and see ya laters, Alex looks at me with such surprise in his eyes as he asks "You actually want to go out?Like today after all of this?"And I reply to him with "yes,I want to get as much of today off my mind as possible"I explain.Alex just nods uncertainly.
I just want to sleep.