𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐆𝐎 • 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐔𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒

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Trigger warning

George's POV
I was still holding onto Leah as silence filled our ears until Leah broke it with a choke. She pulled out of my arms only to fall back into my chest.
"George..."Leah whispers as she looks up to me, tears filling her eyes. No, no, no god please no. She can't go, I just got her back. I look at my hands and I can't see my pale skin but red, thick blood, Leah's blood.
"You bastard! You are not getting away with this!" I shout at Jack as he smirks and walks out. At the exact time Alex with a bunch of police officers barged in, Alex's eyes widened when he saw Leah in my arms and me whispering 'don't close your eyes, you'll be fine.'
Alex and police ran too us.
"George, What the fuck happened?" Alex asks as he looks at Leah's stained body.
"He shot her, Alex. I just got her her back."I sobbed, my tears falling into her pool of blood.
"G-George..." Leah chokes out.
"Y-yeah?" I ask, tears blurring my vision but I can still see her wonderful brown eyes.
"Never forget me." Leah whispers as her eyes start to drop.
"Leah no! Keep your eyes open! Please!" I beg of her and she opens them and raises her hand to rest it on my cheek.
"George, please. Don't forget me."
"I won't."I promise to her and she faintly smiles and her eyes start to drop again. I whisper to her.
"Don't go. Please don't go, Leah" yet she doesn't answer and her eyes shut. She's gone. Alex pulls me into a hug as I cry into his chest, that's when the paramedics arrive and pronounce her dead on the scene. As they took her body away I shout.
"Why? WHY? YOU SAID YOU WOULD NEVER GO AGAIN, LEAH" and as her name left my mouth I collapse into Alex's arms as he tries to console me.

~later on~
The police told Alex to take me home to get me some rest. I'm not sleeping. It's 11:45pm and Alex is in bed. I think back to my memories with Leah, the laughs, the tears, her wonderful brown eyes. Just her. I can't do this. I can't live on whilst she's not In it, I need out. Acting rash I scrummage through my bedside draw, then rushing to my bathroom locking the door once I had found what I had been looking for.
The pills.
I look in the mirror and do not see me. I see a man with scraggy hair, bloodshot sad green eyes, a small smile dancing on my face...
I'll be with Leah again.
I'll see her face again. I'll kiss her again. I'll be with her once more.
I shakily take one pill and raise it too my mouth and swallow deeply. I repeat this action until I fall to the floor and my vision gets dizzy.
I see light. Not the bathroom light but my light.
Leah.
I can see her smiling at me. Suddenly I get a small flashback.
~flashback~
Me and Leah were sat on a bench, watching the ducks on the little lake. I'm going to tell her. About my depression it's only fair. I haven't known her long but I don't want her finding out just if she becomes my girlfriend. So I tell her. Everything. Tears brim her gorgeous eyes as she whispers something.
"George? Don't go." And that pulls at my heart.
"Only if you won't" I say to her like a child.
"I'm not going anywhere."She promises.
"I'm not going anywhere too."I say to her and a smile breaks out on her face.
~end flashback~
I choke as I remember this and shakily whisper out.
"You lied, Leah" black starts to fill my vision.
"And I guess I did too."