one shots [BTS]

Down - Jungkook

-Y/N's POV-

Why is it always me?

2 months ago...

Something happened between us. We weren't talking like we used to, we weren't smiling, laughing, or anything we used to do. Right now.. It's just silence.

I don't even know when it started. But I hope, we could figure this out. Cause I don't want to lose you.

I look at Jungkook who's on his phone the entire time sitting on my couch. Whenever we meet up, he's always like this. The sweet Jungkook I once knew, disappeared to the thin air.

I sat down next to him, "Jungkook."

"Mhm?" He answered never leaving his eyes off the screen.

"Can you put your phone down? We have something serious to talk about."

He sighed and put his phone in his pocket, "What is it?"

"Why have you been acting like this? Is it because I'm not good enough?"

He looked at me with serious eyes, "Should I be honest with you?"

"Yes you should. It's about us and we need to fix it."

He bit his lip before saying something, "The truth is.. I lost feelings for you."

My eyes widen, "Uh?"

"I lost feelings for you. It been a while now. But I couldn't bring the courage to tell you, so I decided until the day come, I'll tell you."

"Why..? Am I lacking somewhere? I can fix it--"

"You don't need to fix anything. It's just that.. You're too good for me. I'm afraid.. We have to split tonight."

"Are you saying.. We should break up?" Tears were falling out from my eyes.

"Yes. Let's break up Y/N. For good." He said it seriously.

I couldn't bring myself to answer. It wasn't what I expected.

"Take care Y/N, I wish you will meet a better man than me. Make sure he treats you right. Goodbye Y/N." He grabbed his jacket and keys before exiting my house.

"Jungkook..!" I cried his name the whole night.

-Present-

It been 2 months and yet I'm still like this. I really need to move on from him.

*knock knock

"Who is it?" I asked as I went for the door.

As I opened it, a body dropped onto my body. Luckily, I held onto him.

"I miss you..." He mumbled.

Recognizing his voice, I immediately brought him to the sofa. As I was about to bring a wet towel for him, he pulled me down not letting me go.

"Stay with me..."

I tried to break off from him, "Jungkook, you're drunk. Let go of me. You don't even know me!"

"What do you meeeeaaaannn?? You're my baby Y/N~~~!!!" He smiles while pecking my forehead.

I pushed myself away from him, "Stop it Jungkook! We're not even in a relationship anymore!"

He got up and he started to tear up, "What? So you're not.. My baby anymore?"

"No Jungkook-- just stay here for tonight. I'll make sure to not touch you or anything so don't worry." I turned around about to leave.

He grabbed my wrist, "I love you Y/N.. I love my baby Y/N so much.. Can't you love me back? Uh? Can't yoooouuu??"

"Jungkook let go of me."

"No! You're staying with me! If you leave, I won't be able to sleep!" I knew he was pouting although I didn't look at him.

No.. Remember.. He's drunk. Once he wakes up, he won't remember anything. You both will just act like strangers once tomorrow comes.

"That won't work on me anymore. I erased all of you already." I broke his grip and went to my room.

As hours passed, I was crying on my bed. I guess I still love him no matter what.. Deeply inside.. I still love him.

"Jungkook..." I whispers.

-Morning-

I opened my eyes and saw Jungkook. He was still asleep. I looked at us and noticed he wrapped his body against mine.

This isn't right, this is wrong.

"Jungkook... Wake up.." I said softly.

"I'm already awake." He opened his eyes, meeting with mine.

"Why aren't you letting go of me?"

"Let's stay like this for a while. I missed this."

"Jungkook, we broke up already. This is wrong."

"But you still love me."

"And you don't."

"Y/N.. Can we start over? I'll do my best this time."

I was reminded of his last words. Although I love him so much.. It's better to live in pain than getting the same ending scenarios twice.

"We can't. You told me.. To find a better man than you. Someone who can treat me right."

He seemed taken aback. He remembered those words, so did I.

"Don't come back drunk here, this place isn't meant for you to come anytime like you used to. It's nothing else but memories. And it's best if you leave every memories you have with me here. It's for the best."

About to lose myself, I rushed to the bathroom. Soon after, Jungkook came in and backhugged me.

"Jungkook--"

"Let's just go back to when nothing happened, until I have to go. After that.. I'll leave for good. I'm for real this time."

I sighed and let him do whatever he wants. He started to take in my smell and look at me from the mirror.

As I cook for us, I can feel his stares on me. Although we made eye contacts quite a few times, it's still awkward.

I placed our plates down and we began eating.

"So you have anything planned later?" He asked while eating.

"No. Why?" I asked.

"I'm just wondering. There's a new store up front your place and thought you might want to check it out."

"Oh. I'll see. If I'm not doing anything, maybe I'll go check it out."

"Sounds good."

"Yeah."

After finish cleaning up, it was time to say goodbye. For real.

He gave me a long hug and kiss before heading out.

"Goodbye Y/N.. I hope you will live well." He smiles.

I smiled back, "Goodbye Jungkook.. Hope you will do fine."

He sighed and walked away. I shutted the door and locked it. I went upstairs to my bathroom and turned on cold water letting them drip on me.

"How can I live well when you're not here with me? My life kept going down.. And soon.. We'll be all done..."

We'll move on and find someone new.. So when we meet again.. We'll able to say this word comfortably, "hi". But always remember, words cannot explains how you really feels.