After All

chapter 1 - misery but i will be fine

Its been a month after our break up.. But i think its just yesterday.

Yeah that is right he broke up with me and im miserable.. everyday.

Im feeling worst everyday without him..

i think boys are created just to add misery in women's life..

Its lunch time and we are in the cafeteria, me and my friends, brian, melissa, genieve and kelvin..

i barely touch my food. I think my appetite went to vincent, they are loyal to each other huh??. Because im losing it too..

"Lesli you should eat, dont ruin your life because of him.. he's not worth it" Brian told me while chewing his pizza. I mean my pizza..

"How can i eat if all of my foods are digested by your stomach.??" I eyed him.

He just smile "opps, sorry. We can share you know, " lending half of my eaten garlic and cheese pizza. my all time favorite.

i let my shoulder go down and sigh.

"whatever to you" and open my book to study on my quiz later.

But suddenly..

"i heard he has someone, and she is..." gen said in a very annoying voice.

I stop reading but i dont look at her. she is always like that, blunt. not sensitive enough. Isn't that obvious that im still in pain?

"gen enough!" its brian

"why? im just stating the fact" she pulled her right eyebrow and stare at Brian intently.

"Gen, i guess this is not the right time for you to tell that" kelvin said in a hard tone.

"yes he is  right. Li doesnt recover yet, its been..." mel stop and look at me.. "2 years"

All of them stare at me. But i can't look at them because im cying.

i dont want them to see me like this. Everyday im hiding the pain.

And eveyday i make my way to over come the hurt, Why now.?

Why should someone slap it to my face that he already moved on and here i am buried a deep hole on the ground and i'm stock right here.

But i try to talk.

"its fine Gen. And im perfectly knew it. I knew everything. She is a queen bee.. an A student. With perfectly long hair. And a freaking sexy body. I knew it all. She is damn perfect. I'm not that stupid Gen. But please dont push it on my face" i look at them and land my eyes on Gen..

its not so typical of me to shout. to be rude. but maybe theres alwyas be a first time.

"i know she is better than me" i make it as if im only talking to Gen.

Brian hold my shoulder and look at me.

"stop it Li, we all know that you are better than that girl."

I shrugged, close my book and pack my thing..

"hey leslie where are you going.? We still have class." mel talked to me looking worried as always.

I dont answer her, i just go out of that cafeteria. And move fast to the parking area.

I dont bother to stop by in my locker. I think im going to pass out.

i sit on my car with a close eyes.. thinking when this will all last.

Then a knock on my window gets me to reality.

and i sighed.

A/N:

hi guys.. im a newbie here. and this is my first book.

i hope someone will drop by and read it.

and i know it is too much, but kindly leave a message. please..

im in for criticism hehehe..

i don't think someone will vote for it. but. yeah it is impossible..

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