After All

chapter 2 - something odd

Knowing someone will always be in my side whatever happens.

Someone i can count on.. someone who will never leave me.

Someone called friend.. a small smile form on my lips..

i open the door and hugged him..

"shhh.. it will be over soon." Brian hug me and cares my back.

"nothing will be over. We are over. If everything in my life comes to an end, I dont think if ill survive"

All my dreams, my future.. its like a wind that i can feel but i know for sure i will not ever see, it will never be real, it will just stay in the back of my mind and be part of my imagination.

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I try to open my heavy lids. But i cant. My body hurts a lot. I cant move. I remember having a gym with Mel yesterday.

"urgh!!" i try to move my shoulder. im in pain, forever.

Irritation feel my senses just thinking the word 'forever' and by that i force to open my eyes. I sit down on my bed.

everything comes instantly, and i think.. problems are just like storm in our life. It doesn't stay too long.

We feel shattered, it takes time to become whole again but then again, lets face it.. thats life.

The funny thing is how this storm becomes burden to you..

you cry over it. But when it stops and think what happened.

Everything is not worth to be that way forever. And then you laugh thinking what you've done..

I sighed.. for a hundredth times  this semester,

but today its not because im broken..

its because my phone is ringing early in the morning. But i have no choice.. so i pick it up.

"Brian, you're too early for a call centre agent. dont you know that its only 7 a.m?"

"hey missy, we only have two weeks for semestral break you should have fun." he say with eagerness in his voice.

and its been 5 months since then, i thought to myself.

"i will have fun. If you let me rest, and don't disturd me in that two weeks" i take a deep breath, lay on my bed again and close my eyes

"you know. You should take a bath. you stink. I smell you right here."

i heard him laugh

"whatever. Im not in a mood for jokes. What do you want?."

I heard a pause.. and then.. silent.. and a deep breath..

I knit my eyebrow. Opening my eyes.

"Brian?? Are you still there? Are you alright? Hey!."

"im fine.. Its just.. i dont know how to do this.." i think his being nervous but i dont know why .

"do what? Just say it Brian"im starting to feel irritated

"Li, umm.. do you have something to do this evening??"

i heard the tense in his voice

"huh? Your so random.. now your curious with my household chores?" i feel wierd if you ask me

"no. no.  not that.."he sighed again.

"you can tell me your problem you..." i hardly finish what im goin to say because he hung up on me.