Sad Poetry

Memories

How often
Do those haunting, traumatic memories
Come back
To fuck us up?

They infiltrate our memories
In order to bring up
The absolute worst things
That happened to us.

Or am I just different?
What do you mean
Most people "delete"
These memories
In order to
Never be affected by them again.

I never knew that was possible
Because every time
I try to put them behind me
They come rushing back
At full force
In order to completely
Wreck me mentally
Physically
Emotionally
and socially.

They crush me
Leaving me wondering
Was it my fault?
Did I deserve
All that happened to me?
The crushing devastation
That my life was wrecked to
After it all?

Maybe I did,
If I didn't
Why is it impossible
To forget these
Haunting, traumatic
Memories?