Last: Realizations
ALYSSA'S POV
I wasn't able to sleep properly last night because I was thinking about him and that revelation, I was not sure whether it was true or not. I got confused, isn't it the reason why he treats me like a Sister? The way he cares, I noticed. When I told him a month ago that me and Jovee broke up it seemed like he was hurt and mad, but chose to stay calm for me because I hate seeing him mad.
I walking to the doors of BEG tonight again after training, just to wash away my thoughts and fly away from reality. I need to cool down myself, I've had enough of last night and today and I want sit on the bench to relax. When I entered, there were sounds of a dribbling ball so I walked slowly and saw a familiar face shooting hoops.
It was him.
I stayed where I am, refusing to move for he might see me. I want to get out but I also want to approach him and ask for confirmation, I want to know if he really did like me. I want to put an end to this mystery and move on, and I want to rekindle our friendship again.
I watched him turn and we caught each other's eye, he was serious and no smile has formed. "What are you doing here?" He asked, I somehow missed his voice-scratch that, I did.
"To relax... A lot of things happened lately." I muttered. I remained standing a few feet away from him, "Why... Why did you suddenly walk away from... Me?" I asked with a shaky voice. I couldn't contain myself, I want our closeness back, I want him back, this would be selfish but I miss him so much.
He didn't answer. Heavens! I am shaking on my feet right now, I want to move near him but I felt like something's refusing me to move. For two minutes there was pure silence until he spoke, "I'm sorry." I sensed deep emotions coming out of him, "I thought I could replace you here if I stay away and choose her, but I was wrong." He pointed into his heart, "You saw me happy and laughing while I stay away from you. Truth is, I was just trying hard... I failed, in the end." Moments later, his eyes started to water, "I love you, Aly."
I laughed for a bit and stopped, I stared at him saw how serious he was, "What about Mika? You're gonna leave her hanging?" I asked.
"We broke up, she knows that I love you still." He said that shocked me but I didn't react, "Remember when you said that you and Jovee are finally together? I was also about to confess to you." He revealed, "Tapos nagbreak kayo, I wanted to get mad at him at gusto ko siyang patayin dahil niloko ka niya. Niloko niya ang babaeng mahal ko, ikaw."
His confession arrowed to my heart. He was definitely important. He was there for me all the time, waiting. I, was blind enough to notice. Then I remembered when I had this little 'Crush' on him, inisip ko pa na hindi kami compatible kaya I tried my best to wash away my infatuation for him and that's when Jovee came.
Hindi ko alam, pero bumalik ata 'yung feelings ko para sa kanya at ramdam ko 'yung guilt. Kung alam ko lang na mutual pala ang feelings namin noon, sana hindi ko pinayagan si Jovee manligaw. Hindi na ako nagtataka kung bakit puro 'sakit' ang nakikita ko sa mukha niya ngayon, ako rin nasasaktan. What to do? It's all on me, I am the one to blame.
All I knew, I was already crying in front of him right now. Lahat ng realizations, tumama sakin and I kneeled down on the floor, punching it while bawling in tears. Bakit ngayon lang? Bakit ngayon lang 'to nangyari? Ganon ba ako kasama na kailangan ko pa hintaying umabot sa ganitong kalagayan bago malaman ang tinatago niyang pagmamahal para sakin?
Then I felt his arms wrapping around me, the warmth that I've been longing for. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." I whispered repeatedly on his ear and I tightened my hug. We stayed that way for a while until my tears went dry, I faced him and he did cry too.
KIEFER'S POV
I wiped my tears and kissed her forehead, "Stop blaming yourself." I said and she stands up and walks with her hands covering her face then looks at me.
"I am to blame..." She trailed off and held her forehead, "I liked you before he came and then I stopped liking you because I thought we're never gonna be good together. Then now, you confessed and I discovered how mutual our feelings were. I should have--"
"You did?" I asked for assurance, my heart pumped wildly when she said that she liked me before. I think it only means that I have a chance again.
"I did and I think... It's coming back, again." She said, "But, can you wait? I don't want to rush anything and today's timing is not right, we'll put ourselves under pressure if we force through."
I understand, I accepted her request and hugged her again, "I can and this time, I'll make sure that you'll be mine."
FOUR MONTHS LATER
I waited and now I am still waiting, I vowed to myself that I will never fail again. Alyssa, she is the one for me and I can feel her in my heart. So far, she has already moved on from her past relationship and I seen her bloom even more.
Tonight, I enter BEG again to do my rituals... Working on my skills. I usually do this on my own but it seems that I'll be having a partner because of the bouncing sounds that I hear inside. When I entered, I saw Alyssa spiking over the net and stopped when she turned to me.
"Akala ko ako lang dito sa court ngayon." Alyssa said and smiled.
"'Yun din akala ko, nandito ka pala. Hindi ba dapat nasa Dorm na at nagpapahinga? May laro kayo bukas." I said as I walked near to her.
"Ayos lang, hindi pa 'ko inaantok eh."
She went back to the bench and returned with a ball in her hand and threw it to me. I didn't know what she's up to but she smiled, maybe she wrote something on it? I checked the ball and I smiled widely at what I read.
Tama na paghihintay mo, manligaw ka na.
"Ngiting-ngiti ka dyan, tumingin ka nga sakin." She said and I looked at her, "Ang cute mo mag-blush." She added and pinched my cheek, katapat ko na pala siya.
"May ganun ka pang nalalaman, pwede mo naman sabihin."
"Sige, basted ka na sakin." She said and turned away from me, I hugged her from the back and she laughed, "Takot!" She teased.
I crept away from her, "Hindi ako takot, gusto lang kita yakapin." I said, "Thank you."
She arched her brow, "For what?"
"For giving me a chance, thank you." I placed my arm around her shoulder, "Maniniwala na ako tadhana."
She looked at me with a questioning face, "Bakit?"
I made her face me again and intertwined our hands then I leaned towards to kiss her forehead and nose, I stared at her bright eyes and we sticked our foreheads together.
"Dahil sa'yo..." I started and saw her blush, I placed her hand on my chest, "Napag-alaman ko na ang tadhana ko ay ikaw." I finished and gave her a sweet smile.
She laughed in turn and wrapped her hands around my neck, "Naniniwala din ako."
