Even In The Weirdest Of Ways

Chapter 2

So this is the second chapter hope you are enjoying it!

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James remained really quiet for the rest of the day, nobody dare to ask him why, but they had a hint of what bother him, even thought he always assured his friends that he didn't care every time Lily turned him down, everybody knew that it still hurt.

When it was dinnertime the Marauders strolled down to the great hall, the four of them noticed that Lily was missing, and they saw Marlene and Alice talking to each other with worried and nervous looks. After dinner three of the Marauders went back to the common room but James said he wanted some time alone, none of them argued with him.

So James wandered through the halls searching for Lily, it was almost curfew so they were almost empty, James was about to give up when he remembered the map that he and his friends had finished putting up at the beginning of this year, he took it out and started to search for Lily's name, he found her in the astronomy tower completely alone, so James rushed to get there.

When James got to the Astronomy tower he hesitated before opening the door, he found Lily curled up in the far corner, with her head on her knees and sobbing, James had never see her that way, it was heart breaking. James approached her quietly, when he was near enough Lily looked up.

-"What are you doing here?"- Lily asked with broken voice.

-"I was looking for you, I was worried."- James answered with caution scared to say the wrong thing.

-"HA! James Potter worried, don't mock me Potter, you've made enough, to now come and tell me that you were worried."- Lily answered with resentful voice, he was the one that made Severus talk the way he did, said the things, he said.

-"I'm not mocking you Lily, I was really worried, and I am sorry for what happened earlier today."- James said, sounding sincere, but Lily didn't want to hear his apologies, he had ruined her relationship with her best friend and that was something she could not forgive and forget that easily.

-"I don't believe you, I don't want to believe you, you don't deserve to be believe not after how you've treat me for 5 complete years, and I'm done with you Potter you don't even deserve for me to be talking to you right now, so if you could make just one little thing for me and leave right now, that I would appreciate it."- Lily said to him calmly but in her voice all James could hear was suffering, Lily was suffering and it was his fault, he hated himself for it.

-"No, I'm sorry but I won't leave, what have I done to you Lily? What have I done for you to hate me so much, for you to despise me?"- James asked pleading

-"You are seriously asking me that Potter! Don't you get it that you're the most selfish, arrogant, pig that ever stepped into my life, don't you get that the moment I met you in the train you completely ruined my life, you made me feel like complete bull-shit! I'd have to fight for the respect of this school since the moment I got my letter it was hard and then I get here and you completely humiliated me, and you have done it every day since then! You just can't leave me alone can you?"- Lily started shouting rage boiling inside of her.

-"You have to go around showing just how superior you are! Taking over first years! Playing silly pranks on Slytherins, just for the fun of it! Asking me out every hour of every damn day! Making fun of me just because I kill myself studying! Don't you get that it is because of you that I have do that, that studying is the only way that I can prove this school that I belong, that getting perfect marks is the only way I show you and everyone else that I can! Because you ruined my life the day that in front of the complete Great Hall you shouted how stupid I was because I got scared when you painted my hair purple! Because everyday since you go out and try to prove that I am nothing, that I mean nothing! That is why I hate you! You completely ruined my life, and made it a hell of a leaving! And you don't even care you never did!"-Lily shouted completely loosing it hating him more than ever, for making her seem so vulnerable, for getting into her skin so easily.

She rushed to the door tears streaming down her face, she slammed the door on her way out. James didn't know what to do he was completely in shock, he didn't know that Lily was affected so much by what he did to her, that it really hurt her, he hated it all of it, because she was right, in every way he was arrogant, he was spoiled, he was a prat, and he hated himself for it, fro all of it. Something changed inside of James that night he finally realized that he needed to change, to gain Lily's trust and forgiveness, he had to grow up.

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