Opposites Attract (Sketch X Reader)

Chapter 14⚠️Mentions of Suicide⚠️

I cried a lot while making this chapter so just... Be ready to be attacked by feels...

Elijah saw the dismay on his moms face and the frown forcing itself on my face. I shook my head, looking at the floor.
"You can't be here." His mom breathes, Staring daggers into the top of my skull.
"Yes, Ma'am." I gulp. "Elijah... I have to talk to you." I walked back towards the door. We stood on his front porch.
"Hey, It's okay we can get through it." He soothes. I shake my head and my gaze fell to the floor. "W-what?"
"My moms gonna make me go to an other collage." I tell him. Elijah tilted my head up by placing his hand under my chin.
"Well, we can do long distance, I can visit you you visit me, We could see each other every month or two, I mean there would be quite a bit of adjusting to do-"
"Elijah... W-we can't..."
"What do you mean?" He asked as his eyebrows knit together.
"It's... It's in England." I look away and push his hand away from me.
"Wha- I-"
"We don't work anyways! We don't Work!" I exclaim, looking back up at him.
"Yes we do- We- We work perfectly fine- I mean we've made it this far-" Elijah starts.
"No! We're complete opposites! We always bicker about small things-"
"Those are small little things- Those- W-we make it through those..." Elijah shakes his head.
"It was just a matter of time before we got in a big fight- I know you're jealous of Peter and I know that you jump to conclusions really easy and I have a short temper and Anger issues in general and It was just a matter of time! It's like we're speeding down a highway and I'm just stepping on the break so we don't crash!"
"We can make it through this, YN! We- Well, Yes we are complete opposites but we work!"
"I hurt everyone I touch! The Car crash! I hurt my best friend back then, Haylie, Then In Freshman year I was dared to kiss Peter- My friend, Diana had a crush on him and she envied me for the rest of our time at school, Then there was-" my breath hitched at the memory of him. "Never mind! It's just a matter of time before I hurt you too!" I exclaim.
"What was the third one?" Elijah asks, keeping his cool even though he knew that I was about to blow my top.
"None of your business!" I snap in his face.
"Sorry if I'm curious!" Elijah said in the, Jesus-Christ-calm-down, tone.
"Well Maybe you shouldn't be!" I yell, balling my fists.
"Calm down." He soothes. "Can you just please tell me."
"No!"
"YN-"
"I just Hurt everyone I love! Elijah... I was held at Gunpoint last week because this girl who lead this gang hate me because I stood up for Peter when he was bullied... Gunpoint!"
"YN listen to m-"
"No! Listen! I'm Constantly getting hurt and each time I do, I know that your heart breaks a little bit! Well one of these days I'm gonna end up dying! Okay! I can feel it! And your heart will break, Yes it will heal buts it's gonna take a long time and your never gonna be the same-"
"How would you know?!" Elijah asks. I gulp.
"It happened to me. That's why." I mutter. "You wanna know what happened! Well I'll tell you to prove a point! It was Eighth grade and I had the friend. He was Transgender, born a girl named Olivia but The people who respected him called his Oliver or Ollie. Though, There were some people who didn't like him very much. They bullied him so so much! And He would still be here if I did something! It's my fault that he isn't still here, Living and breathing! He said that he was talking ta a therapist about the bullying but he wasn't! He wouldn't tell me who was doing it either! But do you know how terrifying it is to walk into your friends bathroom only to see their cold dead body sprawled out on the floor with an empty pill bottle in their hand?!" I exclaim. "IT WAS MY FAULT! IF I DID SOMETHING HE WOULD BE HERE!" I scream, pulling my hair.
"YN..." Elijah opened his arms to hug me for comfort but I shoved him away harshly.
"Don't touch me!" I growl.
I was back in 2011 as I walked down the street to my house after getting a sandwich at Delmars- Best sandwiches in Queens. I grabbed my studying stuff and told my mom that I was going to study for the upcoming exams with Ollie. I had a key to his house, practically being like the twin he never had-- So I let myself in. It was eerily quiet, the only noise was the sound of my shoes shuffling against the wooden floor. I dropped my backpack.
"Ollie?" I called, looking around. No answer. I went to his bedroom, nobody was there. His mom must've been at work or something. "Oliver Jackson this is not funny!" I exclaim. I went into the hall and looked at the closed bathroom door and knocked. "Ollie?" I slowly pushed open the door and I just saw his body on the floor. His face devoid of Color, his light brown hair sprawled a crossed his face, his limps askew. I collapsed down next to him in a head of tears. I felt his face. It was ice cold. I freaked out and moved his hair away from his eyes. They were glassy and Instead of being the pretty green that they usually were, they were grey and devoid of color like his face. "Ollie! Ollie, No!" I exclaim. I saw his right hand enclosed around something and I pried open his cold fingers to find a completely empty clear yellow pill bottle. He killed himself... He's gone... I cried into my dead friends chest. I crawled over to where my phone had fallen from my pocket and I dialed 911, my hands shaking and tears falling from my cheeks as I sobbed.
"This is 911 what's your emergency?" The operator asked.
"M-My best friend just committed Suicide!" I sob.
"Miss, Police and emergency medical services will be at your location in a few minutes, hold on, sweetie." She softened her tone at the end of the sentence. I dropped the phone and held Oliver's cold hand in mine as tears fell from my eyes and I let out loud sobs and cries. Police had to practically pry me away from his corpse.
I was back on Elijah porch.
"All I do is Hurt people!" I exclaim.
"You haven't hurt me-"
"BUT IM GOING TO END UP HURTING YOU!" I scream.
"YN, you won't hurt me-"
"YES I WILL! IM LIKE A BAD LUCK CHARM!"
"Wha- no! No! Your perfect your not bad luck!"
"Elijah, Listen to me." I breathe, my voice shaky and unstable as tears ran down my face. "I love you okay! I f*cking love you! I would take a bullet to the head for you! You have to understand this! I just-"
"If You love me why dont you stay?!"
"Because hurting yourself is like a punch to the stomach, But seeing the people you love suffer it's like a stab to the heart! A bullet to the head!" I cry.
"But-"
"I can't hurt you... I love you Elijah and that's why I have to leave... Besides, the odds are stacked against us, We're complete opposites, You have jealousy problems and I have anger issues, I'm practically the embodiment of pain, Our parents hate each other, And Ill be in England by July and I just can't let you be broken-hearted..." I list off.
"Well, Your Gonna leave me broken hearted now-"
"I know, But if one day you suddenly get news that I've died, You'll never be the same and your just to pure and perfect, okay. If I leave you, You'll get over me in about a month then if I die, you'll never know, Your wont care, you won't need to know." I sniffle and wipe my nose with the back of my hand. "Elijah, You can't change my mind." I plead as He stared at the ground.
"Fine..." He looked up at me, several tears rolling down his cheeks. I stepped forwards and wiped is tears with the heel of my palm. I hugged him tightly and he did the same. I pulled back and gave him a sad smile. "I'm gonna remember you." He tells me.
"It's better if you don't." I sigh.
"That's something I just can't do."
"We had a good run buddy... I love you." I whisper the last part to myself.
"We did, Didn't we?" Elijah let a sad laugh leave his lips.
"10 months." I sigh. "I uh... Good luck with life I guess..." I nod his way and walk down the steps.
"You too..." Elijah replies and I heard the front door shut and so I got in my car and started the drive back to Queens.