Forever I'm Changing - ON HOLD!

Chapter 8: Ocean

"Oh my head Jessie are you okay?"  Kelly asked me over the phone. I truly wasn't okay. I was a mess.

"Yeah I'm fine. Just a little shooken up." I said while I was in the limo with Kerry and my dad on the way home from the scene.

"Are you sure? I can come over right now. Do you need anyth..." I cut her off

"Kelly! I'm fine. I'll call you tomorrow okay?" I said not really feeling like dealing with her right now.

"Okay. call me if you need ANYTHING!!" She said sternly

"Okay bye"

"Bye" than hung up the phone putting it my back pocket.

"Your not okay." Kerry said looking at me worried. "You've been through a lot in the past month and with what just happened, your anything but okay." She said while studying me with her eyes.

"Kerry let it go for now." My dad said putting a hand on her knee. She put her hand on his.

She let out a sigh. "Yes dear." She kissed him quickly on his cheek.

I looked out the window staring at the the building as we quickly drove by them. I know I'm startled. That's an understatement. I don't even have a word for what I feel right now. 

I started thinking about everything. The accident, the ex, the murders. Why me? Why do I hjave to be involved in any of this?

***

The next morning my dad let me stay home from school. I looked at the clock when I woke up it was 8:23 A.M. I was exhausted. I fell asleep  around 4 last night and also kept waking up all through the night. God I hate my life!

My life is hell!

I felt like staying up in my room all day. I wasn't motivated to do anything.

I went downstairs to grab something to quick to eat. I made waffles and went back upstairs. I decided to blast my music and do some homework I was behind on. As much as I had to force myself to do it, I did.

After finishing my homework an hour or so later, I got up and opened my curtains looking out on the ocean. It was beautiful. I suddenly felt the urge to go swimming. Forget the pool. I'm swimming in the fricken ocean!

I put on my bikini, sundress, flipflops, and sandals and headed outside.

It took about 20 min for me to finally get to the beach. I took off everything except for my bikini.

I ran into the freezing water.

I stood there while the water came up to my chest, feel the water movement glide across me. I closed my eyes trying to clear my mind of everything. The sun beating down on my face felt good. The water felt refreshing against my skin. 

After standing there I dived under the water swimming with my eyes still closed.

Approximately 10 minutes later I got out. As I made my way out of the water I saw one of the maids calling my name waving trying to get my attention.

"Ms.Jessica, there is a young man named Anthony looking for you in the mansion. Would you like to see him or do you want me to send him away?" She asked 

"I'll see him." I said breathing heavily from swimming in the water.

"Follow me." She said.

I grabbed my dress throwing it on quickly and my flip flops on and my glasses and walked with the maid. We walked up the stairs leading to the pathway to my house when I saw she took a small golf cart thingy with her. 

I hopped in with her. We finally got back to the house. I walked in the back door, making my way to the living room with the maid.

We finally reached Anthony when she went back the way we came in the living room. He was looking at the pictures. 

"Eh Hem" I faked cough when Anthony turned around with a grin on his face. "What are you doing here?"

"I couldn't visit my girl." he said making his way towards me.

"First of all I'm not your girl, second of all, what give you the right to come visit me without calling?" I said crossing my arms.

"I wanted to make sure you were okay. But by the looks of it you've been out in the water all day." He said with a low chuckle. "I heard what happened yesterday and i though you could use some company." he said when his face expression changed to worry.

"That's the last thing I need. I want to be alone." I said to him

He put up his hands in surrender. "Sorry for trying to be a nice guy. What's your problem?" 

"I don't have a problem, I just don't feel like dealing with you." I said

"Dealing with me? I haven't done anything. What's your problem?" He said annoyed now

"I really don't feel like seeing you right now."

"Fine whatever. Do me a favor, don't call for anything okay? I don't want you to have to deal with anything else." he said then stormed off leaving my house.

Whatever, I'll talk to him later.

***

I took a shower and got dressed. I heard a knock on the door. "Come in!" I yelled slightly

"I saw my dads head pop in. "Hello sweetie. I was wondering if we could talk."

"Yeah sure." I said sitting on my bed patting the seat next to me. He came in and sat on my bed.

"How are you doing?"

"I'm doing alright. Just thinking about it a lot." I said looking down at the floor.

"I was um,, wondering.. if you would like to go to a therapist. Its..its not that you need one but you've been going through a lot lately and I honestly don't know what to do for my baby girl. And it scares me seeing so scared and upset." He said putting his hand on mine.

"I don't think a therapist is going to help this all go away dad." i said softly.

"Okay, it was just a suggestion. If you want to at any time just let me know okay?" 

"Yeah dad, of coarse.

He kissed me on the top of my head "I love you sweetie. Always remember that. So doesn't Kerry. You're like a daughter to her. You can go to her and I for anything." He said putting his hand on the side of my head holding me close.

"I love you too dad. Thanks for being there for me." I said looking up to him 

"Anytime." He smiled kissing me once more on the head. "Dinners ready if you would like to come and eat with us."

"Sure. I'll be down in about five minutes."

"Okay." And then he was gone.

Once he closed the door, my eyes watered right away.

Why is this happening to me? I haven't done anything to deserve this.

I wiped away the stray tears going down my face. And headed downstairs for dinner.

*** 

The week went by  fairly fast. Every time I saw Anthony in the hallway he just looked away. I tried to work up some encouragement to talk to him but I was just to upset.

I haven't got one wink of sleep in the past 4 nights. All I though about was the note and the dead driver. 

What would anyone want with me? I hoped my life could just start off with a new start but of coarse that was unlikely.

I guess I'm just going to have to hope nothing else happens..... 

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