corey (bwwm teacher-student)

ch.7 we can't do this

rushing to school I barely make it in time for fourth period. I take my seat in the back and pull out my history book. and get ready to learn.

in my mind, i felt that it was a kinda good that I didn't go to third period, only because I really needed this extra tine to think and plan out what it is I'm going to say to him.

I don't want to be rude or mean to him, but I need to let him know that what we did yesterday can't go on. Not saying I would love for it to be an every day thing, but it's too risky for any of this to be happening, for his sake and for mines. he might even agree with me for all I know, so why am I even stressing it?

" I'yana?" I hear in the faint distance. turning my head I notice my teacher calling me.

"yes?" I ask. getting stares from everyone in the class.

"I asked if you'd like to read the next chapter on cold war." she stated happily.

"yeah, sure." I say as I begin to read.

the whole entire time while I was reading, my mind was still stuck on Corey. I really hope I don't disappoint him, he's really special to me for some strange and odd reason. even though I barely know him. You ever have that feeling in your gut that's telling you something but your just hesitant about it...? That's that feeling I have about Corey.

hearing the bell ring I jump out of my seat and dash towards Mr.Porters class.

as I get closer and closer to his door I can feel my heart pound and clash up against my chest. I sure as hell knew I didn't have the balls to do this shit, but I have no other choice, I just have to do this.

reaching his class, I pray he's the only one in there. I don't know why someone else would be, with it being lunch and all.

slowly turning the nob, I quietly open the door and peak in. and I notice he's all alone by himself.

taking in a huge breath, I March right on in his class and stop directly in front of him. ready to do something I knew I would to totally regret.

MR.PORTER/COREY (P.O.V)

after leaving her house, I felt different. I felt like a new and improved me. I was feeling things I'd never felt before all because of this one girl.

maybe its because I haven't been really into any serious relationship lately, not to say that's what we have going on, but I sure as hell would love to have that with her one day. no other female has made me feel this way in what I can roughly say around three years.

my hearts been broken and torn by many girls, but this one is different I can feel it.

she definitely has me feeling some type of way and I can't ignore it. I really do hope she feels the same way as I do like she said before I left, because I really think we could be something in the near future.

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while driving home I get a text from my best friend Jim telling me that he was coming over.

that sorta lightened the mood even more, because I really think that I needed that, and badly. I actually need a guy friend over so that I can put my mind at ease, also so that I can think clearer to what I'm actually feeling deeply inside, before I make a decision I might regret.......

while Jim was over, we drunk for hours on end. and just talked about nonsense, until one specific subject came up that I was uneasy on.

"you found a girl yet?" he asked me as we were watching some football on t.v.