•𝑭𝑨𝑹𝑬𝑾𝑬𝑳𝑳•

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Our feelings have been written
down over countless pages,
But for some reason, I just can't fill in this one line of blank space.

I put in a pressed flower as a
bookmark and roll along with you on the bike we found thrown away.
We piled up the bricks we've
forgotten and then tore them back
down.

We're being pulled to the same level,
to be equals. All tired out from
having fun
I'm sure that we won't remember
the frighteningly blue sky.

In that way, a bundle of sunlight
now pushes in my direction.
The two of you are still right there,
but I find myself praying that we
can meet again.
There must be something wrong
with me.

My hand that turns to the next page,
and the misanga I fastened with
my
lips...
Hey, today is today, and that won't
change; if it rains, we can still talk on
the phone.
In that way, I now push (Before I
knew it, the misanga came off,)
My kindness in your direction. (But
for some reason, I can't say it.)
There really must be something
wrong with me.

If you choose any one, it will break
with a sound -
That is what love is, I joked, and
you
laughed.

Good thing, I made it on time.
Deciding to pretend not to know,
the
city went to sleep.
Let's go to the place where we piled
the bricks we've forgotten.

Running up the hill that looks out
over the sea, under the
frighteningly
blue sky,
My right hand holds a soda, and
my
left hand is always searching for
you.

In that way, with my two occupied
arms, I embrace the spring wind.
Time is still ours to spend, so I'd
love
it if you wouldn't say
That we'll forget this day someday.

In that way, the present comes
toward me without asking me any questions.
I suppose the two of you are still
right there. "Oh, right, the words to fill in
the blank are-"
No, I won't say it just yet.

My hand that turns to the next page,
and the misanga I untied with my
lips...
The first train of the day, and a
sparse bit of happiness... Hey,
today is today, and that won't
change.

There really must be something
wrong with me.

Humming along the song our favorite. Through headphones. I went along the side way of the road, sighing trying to be calm as the frustration giving me headache all over again.

Looking up at the sky a little smile crept at my face the slight breeze of July calming me with a sunlight giving me warm, but this frustration can't seem to go away why!

Within few minutes stopping at the halt as I reached my apartment , turning the knob sighing of despair again I entered.

Trying to shake off my thoughts I went into my apartment unknowingly, throwing my shoes at entrance lazily walking toward the kitchen. I placed the plastic bag at the table as I turned around see my  dad lying on mattress eye fix on TV screen I sigh again shaking my head.

Turning back toward the stove; grabbing the pot I filled it with hot water and put it on stove to make me and dad some ramen for breakfast.

"what are you doing tae tae ~~" she cling at my back as she looked at the pot, I flick her forehead.

" ouch-" she wince but grab me tighter sighing to make myself relax I push a little.

" jinae you know we are no more children right!" I yelled startling her as she get off me.

" sorry tae tae but I like to tease you ~" here she goes, that smile never get rid of her face even though I yell she always smile.

She went on giggling but soon stopped as she saw my frown face.

" oh! You are done laughing! why are you looking at me now?" I yelled again.

"mhmm tae ~ah why you always grumpy now let me help you ~" suddenly she came closer to me, pointing both index fingers at me my frown widen.

"now what you are trying to do " I grabbed her small fingers but she brought them more closer to my face making me raise an eyebrow.

Putting both fingers at the both end of my lips she pull them opposite side revealing my teeth.

"now I see that cute box smilie of yours ~~" I groan jokingly

" you pabo never understands me "I rolled my eyes and turned my back at her, as I knew ramen was ready. I switch off the stove while she still blabber random things but never stopped clinging to me.

" yah! Tae ~ah give me ramen too ~ "

I ignored

" please tae ~ah "

I ignored

"taehyung make me some ramen too you meanie "

I ignored again

This isn't real
Its just me hallucinating

I scold myself silently

Stop it!

You're not really this isn't real.

I'm so pathetic!

I can't control myself!

It's haunting me

I'm hurt

Please stop!

Don't do this to me!

I'm sorry...

Forgive me....

Please forgive me...
Jinae

Please stop I can't take this..

I sighed as I realized that the pot of hot boiled water was spilled at my shirt.

Hissing with slight pain .which also made her stop as she stood beside me froze eye widened.

I slapped myself mentally again.

She isn't real you bastard.

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