Monster (Haitus)

Chapter 5: flashbacks

Flashbacks keep appearing back and forth over and over and over not leaving.

"What the fuck is going on?????"

My breathing gets extremely heavy and I start sweating as I tuck my head into my knees and put my hands against my head and grabbing onto my hair

"Stop it stop it stop it, what is this? Who are these people, what's going on, get out of my head, get out get out get out get out"

*Sylvia runs to my room and starts knocking on the door* "Nathan let me in, cmon nathan let me in" *Sylvia starts banging on the door loud "Nathan I ca-

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD" I scream loudly as I start breaking my room.

*I get up and start punching my walls and throw my things around my room as I scream*

"Why is this happening? What am I seeing? GET AWAY FROM ME *tears start to form in my eyes*

"I feel so much pain... physically and emotionally in these things I'm seeing, make it stop, make it stop.. MAKE IT FUCKING STOOOOOOP"

*my father tells Sylvia to move out the way, when she does he charges and shoulder bashes the door blowing it wide open, my father was strong, quite strong in fact*

*I stand up and turn to look at them but when I turn I see myself in the mirror and it's as if time slowed down and I see myself but it's not the same thing I'm doing, he's standing there and looking at me with wicked eyes*

Monster...

*I finally turn around and look at them with fear in my eyes and in their eyes when they look at me. Sylvia calmly walks over and when I look at her and my mind and the world goes silent, the images stop appearing and I get tunnel vision, I only see her and nothing else, she goes and stands straight in front of me. She looks up at me and I look down at her, she raises her left hand straight up and says sorry, she chops my neck and it knocks me out as I fall forwards slowly she catches me and gently puts me on the ground*

"Go to sleep, don't worry, you won't remember much, if anything of what you saw"

I woke up in a empty black space, nothing around me, nothing below or over me, just pure black.

I turn around a see a mirror, I feel the need to walk towards it so I do.

I stand in front of it and look at it. I see myself but with black messy hair, no shirt on, crimson red eyes, black veins all around me.

I panic and look down but see no veins. And my clothes, I'm confuses and I look back

I have a locket around me neck, my teeth are sharper and I'm smiling with such evil yet I feel such great fear.

In the mirror I see myself behind me, that's what you see yourself as, I turn around and no ones there, I look back in the mirror and it's closer to me.

You see yourself as a monster, a freak, someone who shouldn't exist.

"Shut up..."

It's true, you feel as if no one cares about you

"So what if I do"

But Andrew has proven himself and so has Erin.

It got closer

"I know they have, I only trust them and my mother"

What about Sylvia?

"The only reason she's trying is so mum and dad don't bother her about talking to me"

That's a lie and you know it, you're scared to trust her

"I'm not scared of her"

After what happened with Sarah, you fear everyone close to you will leave.

"Who's Sarah?"

I feel sudden anger and more black veins appear and a black mist surrounds my legs

*laughs* the more angry you get the more you see yourself as a monster, maybe that's why after what you did Sarah left"

"Be quiet, who is Sarah"

He's right behind me and puts his hands on my shoulders

You've been out for quiet a while, why not let me take the wheel?

"What are you talking about?