She Is Taylor

CHAPTER 1: Vanilla ice cream and Chocolate ice cream

Everybody likes either vanilla or chocolate ice cream...Either ONE is their CHOICE...But, I don't have a choice. I like both. People like me can understand this but, people who have only ONE CHOICE don't really understand me. Still don't get me, huh? YES, I am a BISEXUAL...I like both MEN and WOMEN. I don't know why...Being a BI is not my fault. I was BORN that WAY. Still people nowadays don't understand us. WELL, I have so many questions to ask the Anti-LGBT people or just, STRAIGHT people...At the first, these people have no rights to judge people like me. You see guys, an LGBT rights activist questioned the media that how can 10 HETEROSEXUALS judge 1 HOMOSEXUAL'S life? What an unexpected snap for the MEDIA... Ha-ha, Good question. My QUESTION is what is wrong to be in the LGBTQ community? We are BORN this way. These people just don't want to understand us. Is this a SIN? We have the same blood colour as every human does. These people are reacting as if we have black coloured blood or dirty blood. The phrase 'LOVE no HATE' has just vanished these days. People just say it in their mouths BUT, they don't MEAN it. The precious words, 'ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS' have been destroyed by these cruel minds. We have FEELINGS too; we have a HEART too; we even have BLOOD running in our veins too... WE don't ask anything ELSE; BUT, just don't HATE us...WE are HUMANS too.

I am even scared to come out about this to my parents because, we are CATHOLIC, thinking that this might be a TABOO. I only told about this issue to some of my friends...Half of them listened to me; BUT, half of them even BULLIED me. "WHO ARE THEM to JUDGE ME? It's my life, you know. I am the one who are going to live this life. NOT THEM." I convinced myself.

I first found that I am bisexual on the age of 13. Now I am 16 years old. It's been three and a half years of me being a bisexual. I was already had a lot of boy crushes and suddenly, something strange happened to me. It was unusual and weird. I started to have a massive crush on my best friend, Julia. I don't know why...It is just that I was very attracted to her or found her very attractive. I started to have more girl crushes too. Whenever I am scrolling into Instagram posts or Facebook posts I feel like I am really attracted to most girls' outta there. And I started to realised that I have 50% Masculinity and 50% Femininity inside me which is meant to be a BISEXUAL. I told to Julia that I had a crush on her, but, she didn't accept it. She told me back that being one of the LGBTQ community is disgusting and gross. She even refused to sit beside me as we always do. I just replied her saying, "As a best friend, you should motivate me or never let me down but, you are doing completely opposite. I am completed ASHAMED of MYSELF to be friends with you. This is a TOXIC friendship. BYE." And went off. I just erased her from my life and made my heart made of GLASS into STONE and forgot all the MEMORIES I had with her. I was ashamed that I had a massive crush on that kind person. Here, I am just continuing my precious life with happy and sad moments. Sometimes I will be floating on the air with jubilation; but, sometimes I will drown into the river of melancholy. THAT'S LIFE. People think that the most precious thing in this world is MONEY. But, for me it is not. For me it is LOVE, TIME and.....'LIFE'.

I also think that Iam a gifted child; I am very SPECIAL from others and GOD have gifted me such abeautiful nature of myself, MY SEXUAL ORIENTATION....I don't care what you peoplethink about me. IT IS BECAUSE, It is my LIFE. Even though if everybody HATESME, I always bare in my MIND that GOD will always LOVE me and I AM HIS CHILD.BARE it your MIND, PEOPLE, GOD LOVES ME. I am not the one who cause sin you,people. YOU are the ONE who CAUSE SIN, you people. You people refused to FOLLOWGOD's words which are to LOVE everybody in the equal way. 'LOVE NO HATE'.Again, I don't HATE myself or unaccepted myself I LOVE myself and I proudlyACCEPT myself. As a bisexual teenager, I am very proud to go through this exquisiteand I thank GOD for creating me in this wonderful way. And of course there areno WORDS to DESCRIBE GOD.