Sam Golbach and Colby Brock

11

"Hold on Colby I will be right back." I said to Colby. I got up and went to Jakes and Luna's room. Jake left early this morning for the gym.
"Luna I am am doing it again." I said really fast.
" Witch it there is a lot, be specific." She said.
"Over thinking, like I always do. I choose Colby, but what if he sees my scars and doesn't like me any more." I said really fast and panicky.
"If he doesn't like you for you he is not the one for you." She said all calmly.
"That's another thing that freaks me out I want him to be the one." I said it even faster.
"Ok breath. Sit down." I she said slowly and calmly. I did as she said.
"You need to talk to him, talk to him now so it doesn't get brought up later. You wouldn't want that to happen." She said.
"What if I just cover it up with foundation." I said.
"What about the ones you made two days, ago, I saw you take that blade into the bathroom. He would be able to feel them? What about later down the road you take showers together?" She said.
"Okay stop you are freaking me out even more."   I said
"That's why you should tell him now." She said.
"Okay." I said with a nervous sigh.  I went down stairs with a knot in my stomach.
"Hey Colby..... since we are dating I have something that needs to get off my chest." I said fast.
"Um ok... is it bad you only talk fast when your nervous."
"It is not bad for you it is for me." I said.
"Okay......" he said waiting for me to say it.
"Can we talk in your room?"
"Yeah sure" he answered. We walked up the stairs. We walked into his room. He plopped on the bed.
"So um. I am just gonna say this fast and I am gonna get it over with." I said.
"Okay." He said.
"Ok um I have been cutting my thighs since I was about 12 years old, and I cut my wrist before that but I stopped with my wrists because I didn't want anyone to see." I said super fast and my heart was pounding even faster.  Colby kinda just sat there for a moment processing everything.
"May I ask why." He said.
"Long or short version?" I asked. Colby looks at his wrist acting like it was a watch, but there wasn't one there.
"Long version I got time."  I explained it in detail and explained it how I would a therapist. He stood there in shock for at least two minutes.
"Colby?"
"Yeah sorry just wouldn't think a girl that pretty would think about her self like that. It surprises me so much." He said. "I would never think of you like that. May I see the marks?"
"Yeah." I said with a shake in my voice. I slowly pulled down my pants just to wear my cuts stopped. He started at me for a long time, or maybe I just thought it was a long time. He studied each individual cut. The new ones, the old ones, and the scared ones that where really deep.