Where Theres Hope Theres Love

Chapter 4

Now it was time for me to go to school. I barely even slept last night. I was so scared to go to school because if Chad starts talking to me then everyone will stare at me because I'm such a nerd and he's such a hottie. I'm scared of everyone staring at me because I have stage fright. Well now I have to go to school. I'm so tired I don't know how I'm going to stay awake. I'm so scared!

Now I'm at school and Josie is standing there going "Where have you been? You weren't on the bus. Everyone was asking me where you were and I was like, I don't know where she is now stop asking."

"Sorry I wasn't on the bus. I wasn't ready in time to make the bus so my mom had to drive me."

"Well next time be ready for the bus."

"Fine." Then we went to class and I didn't want to talk to Josie the whole time. Then I saw Chad. Oh my god I can't believe it. 'Why is Chad here?' I was thinking in my head. He walked up to me and then he started talking to me. Everyone was staring, I'm so scared. Then he started blabbing about the project and then he was like I really liked working with you. That's when I started to actually listen.

All of a sudden the principle walks in and says "Can I talk to Hope?"

The teacher said "Hope go with the principle."

So I have to get up in front of the class and go to the principles office and then I see my mom. What could have I done wrong? I didn't do anything bad. All of a sudden my mom says "I have some bad news."

I couldn't see her face until I sat next to her. I saw that she was crying and I was worried.

I said "what's the bad news?"  

"Your docter called and said.............. You have cancer."

"WHAT!!!!"

How would I have cancer?! This is the worst day off my life.

Then I said "What kind of cancer do I have? And do I have to stop going to school?"

"You can't go to school and you have lung cancer."

I was so mad. I ran out of the office and started to cry.

Then I heard the bell ring. I had to hide. I ran outside started cry even harder. Then my mom came out.

I tried really hard not to talk to her but I couldnt help but say " Mom I'm really scared. cancer kills people! What if I'm one of those people?"

She said "You won't. Don't worry, you will be okay I promise."

That night I couldn't fall asleep. I was to scared that I could die this year. I wish that this didn't happen. I started to text Josie.

"r u still mad at me?"

"wtf its 12 y r u texting me!"

"i dont want u to be mad at me."

"well i am.... so goodnight"

"no dont go back 2 bed... y r u so mad at me"

"cause everyone was asking me ?s and i dont like it when people do that"

"wow y r u being so mean just because i didnt get 2 the bus on time?"

"because i alredy told u"

"whatever i guess we r not bffs anymore"

"i guess"

"bye"

She never answered me i was so mad at her during school i didn't even say hi when she said "hi" to me.