Pain, screams, silent.
Bleeding
Bleeding out all of what the past has brought me.
I hear your laugh,
i hear your shouts,
all aimed at me.
EMO! you shout
FREAK!
WEIRD!
UGLY!
but your words fail to hurt me.
They just trickle down my back,
what hurts me the most is the unbearable ache in my chest,
in my head,
in my stomach.
This ache will never leave.
No matter how hard i try,
sometimes it dies down a little
but always comes back stronger.
I cant fight it much longer.
Nobody can hear my screams,
Nobody can see me break.
I sit alone in my own blood,
crying out.
I plea to feel how i did when i was young,
or maybe to even remember how happiness feels.
I hate myself,
more than you could ever imagine.
The words i tell myself are what breaks me.
I fear going to school.
I fear going home.
I fear death.
yet i long to die.
At home its all shouts,
and pain,
and reminders.
I HATE it.
At school,
its lonliness,
roaming the school alone,
being stared at,
being judged.
I HATE it.
Crying, CRYING out.
Bleeding, screaming,
dying.
