INSTAGRAM MODEL (𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦 )

F I F T Y - F I V E

The boys haven't seen Wonpil in four days. Not even Younghyun, who basically lives with him has seen him. Dowoon had tried to talk to the boy but he wouldn't open his room door. Younghyun did his best to break down the door, but that also became an epic fail. Sungjin and Jae tried to help them get the boy out, but nothing they came up with worked.

Dowoon began to worry, knowing Wonpil wasn't in the best of moods. He was basically being told to die. He worried for the boy's health as well. Dowoon wanted to make sure he was eating and taking care of himself. Being locked in a room for days wasn't part of being healthy. Just the thought of Wonpil in that state made his heart shatter.

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kwp-POV

I haven't been out my room in about four hours. Yes, I leave my room, but only when Younghyun hyung wasn't around. I didn't feel like talking, nor seeing anyone.

It's funny how a simple set of words could set you off to the edge in an instant. The comments and messages this person constantly left me had me thinking of things I've ever done wrong to anyone. It had be thinking about myself and how I act in general.

Maybe, I'm not that good of a person I thought I was. Was my presence a nuisance? They seemed so happy when I said I was taking a break. They said they wanted me gone for good.

They wanted me dead.

Would I really do that for someone's happiness? Me dying because they don't want me alive? Simply to put a smile on their face?

The answer is no.

But maybe, if I stayed away from everyone

They'd forget about me

And they'll be happy.

Because I'm gone

But I don't want to be alone.

I missed Younghyun hyung. He always came to my door any chance he got and would talk to me, even if I wouldn't respond. I also missed Sungjin hyung. Sungjin would always drop my and try to encourage me and give me advice.

I even missed Jae hyung. He did his best to throw something in and make me laugh. He succeeded, but I never let him know that. I always stifled a laugh, hoping he wouldn't hear a thing.

But the one I've missed the most was Dowoon.

I missed his cute smile and the way his eyes would crease and his nose would crinkle when he laughed. His laugh? That was one of my favorite sounds.

But the most heartbreaking sound was him crying.

He'd always come by my door and talk to me for hours and hours. He would tell me how much he loved me and how much he missed me. Dowoon wanted to see me, but I never let him.

Boyfriend or not.

But I almost let him in when he started crying.

My heart broke into pieces from hearing him break out into sobs.

I cried with him, even when he left. I cried and cried, as if I was an ever lasting fountain, never drying out.

I just need some time for myself