I Don't Wanna Be You Anymore (Langst)

If Tear Drops Could be Bottled

Lance's POV:

I wake up to the alarms blaring in my ringing ears... Of course this is the hardest part of waking up...getting the mental energy to get up. I get up and walk to the bathroom and put a bandages on my wrists and my makeup on to cover old scaring and my flaws. I brush my hair quickly and put on a long sleeve shirt and my usual jacket and my pants. I lift my shirt to look at the cuts on my hips... That's the most painful place to cut...there are so many there.

I walk down the halls to the kitchen and I put on my mask and my smile and walk in. "Good morning everyone!" They all look over at me but Allura always looks at me with that glare. "Lance, you are late again. What took you so long?" I still can't look at her in the eyes when she yells at me, "I was getting my beauty sleep, you think this comes naturally?" I flash a smile as my insecurities crawl on my back. Pidge laughs "of course it doesn't, you really think you are attractive? Ha! Lance you're priceless." I feel a pain in my chest...she is right... I'm not attractive at all... Im a horrid to look at. I hate my skin... I hate my smile... I hate my laugh... I hate my hair and my body. Allura groaned "Well we will be doing some bonding exercises so everyone to the training room in 40 tics." Everyone leaves.

3rd person POV:

Everyone goes to the training room and Allura grabs a numerous tortoise tablets that are the size of pennies. "I will give you these tablets and you have to swallow them but before that let me tell you what they are for." Allura hands them out as she explains "These tablets will make you be able to hear people's thoughts but only specific thoughts, not any romantic ones but thoughts that are the loudest in that person's head to help us understand eachother more. Oh and you won't be able to know who's thoughts you're reading." Allura finished explaining as everyone swallowed the tablets. Lance was hesitant but he swallowed.

Keith's POV:

I swallow the tablet Allura gave us and my head is filled withthoughts that aren't mine. 'i need to gix my damn glasses' well im guessing thats Pidge... 'i miss cats...' I can't really tell who that is but I feel bad for them... 'I hope these work' hmm.. Maybe that's Allura's....
'My damn cuts are stinging...oh wait..can't think about that... Everyone can hear.' Wait? Who's cutting? This is concerning...
'i need some sleep' oh that must be Shiro..

Lance's POV:

My sides hurt so damn much.. I'm just worried that someone can hear my suicidal thoughts... I hope not. All these damn thoughts are too loud... Everything is too loud... Why am i still here?

"Um who is upset?" I hear Pidge ask, "yeah who needs yo have a talk?" Hunk starts asking. Oh god.. I cant let them hear... I see Everyone turn to Keith, "Keith is that you?" Keith looks over at me, oh god please don't ask me "no its not me... Lance... Is that y-" Allura cut him off "Its definitely not Lance." Pidge laughs "That's the funniest shit I've ever heard! Ha! Lance? Depressed? Oh thats a knee slapper." I feel a wave of sadness hit me like a tsunami with the feeling of my lungs being filled. I look up and they don't take one look at me and keep asking everyone else who is having those thoughts.