I sit on my bed and stare out of my window as I hear a knock on my door. "Billie, it's Chris. Can I come in?" I don't turn to look. "Come in." I say plainly.
"Moms gone again." Chris was only 12. He didn't understand why his mother had abandoned him so much. I turned to face him. "Come sit." I patted beside me on my bed. "Why does she leave so much Billie? Is it my fault?" He frowns and looks at the carpet. "No, Chris don't ever think that." I put my hand on his shoulder. "She just.." he interrupts me. "She doesn't love us, does she?" He looks at me, I can tell he wants to cry but he's obviously holding it in. "I don't know, honestly. I wish I did. I just think that mom wasn't ready to have us when she did." He nods. "Do you think she'll ever love us?"
"I always hoped she would. But hey," I lift his chin with my finger. "It doesn't matter. You know why?" I give him a big smile. "Why?" He asks smiling back. "Because I love us. I love you and I'm always going to be here for you. I always have been and I always will be."
I pat him on the back. "I know it's tough, buddy. But it'll be ok. We're strong, and we have each other."
"Thanks Billie, you're the best." He hugs me tightly.
"Do you wanna do something together tonight? You can pick." I smile at him as I hug him back. "Yeah! We can watch a cool movie and eat popcorn!"
"Ok, sounds great. Go downstairs and pick your favorite. I'll be there in a minute." Chris runs down the stairs with excitement.
I let out a big sigh. I look out my window at the stars and ponder chris' questions. I shake my head and go downstairs.
Chris jumps up excitedly with the biggest smile on his face.
"I picked the coolest movie I could find! Jurassic park!" He begins to imitate dinosaurs. I giggle. "Oh T-Rex, I'm going to go make the popcorn. You can start the movie if you want." I smile and head into the kitchen.
When the popcorn is finished I pour it into a big bowl and join Chris on the couch. He's enthralled with the movie, staring deep into the tv as it plays. "Popcorn?" I say as I plop down beside him. "Yeah!" He takes the bowl and holds it in his lap going back to the movie. I take a few pieces and begin watching it myself. I look down at my brother and smile. I'm so happy that he can forget the world he lives in for a little while.
I wake up to realize we'd both passed out during the movie. Chris was laying with his head on my leg. The popcorn bowl was nearly empty. A few pieces had dropped on the ground. I grabbed the remote and turned the tv off.
"Chris." I said shaking him lightly.
He looked up at me sleepily.
"We should go to bed." He nodded at me and got up off the couch. "Goodnight Billie." He said as he headed up the steps. "Goodnight."
I picked up the bowl and the little pieces of popcorn off the floor.
My phone vibrated on the table. I picked it up to check my notifications.
It was a text from breanna. Wyd
I laid my phone back down and continued with what I was doing. I decided I'd wait to text her back until I was in my room.
I laid on my bed and called her. She picked up immediately. "You'll never guess who I'm with." She squealed excitedly into the phone. "Damien?" I asked sarcastically. "How'd you know?" "Lucky guess?" I rolled my eyes. "Olivia's totally been blowing up his phone. He's been ignoring her all night for me." She bragged.
"Pfft. Must be nice." I scoffed. "It totally is. Hey, gotta go. Boo thang's looking for me."
"Gross! Who says boo thang?" I laugh.
"Shut up, you're just jealous. Gotta go, love you." She hangs up. I toss my phone next to me on my bed and stare at my ceiling. Levi pops into my head.
I wonder what it's like to have something like that. I cover myself up and fall asleep.
I wake up with the realization of what day it is. My stomach hurts, I'm nervous. I check my phone and decide to text breanna. When are you coming over? I lay back down awaiting her response. My phone buzzes. Now.
It's 2pm. I wonder to myself why we have to begin getting ready so early. It never takes me long to get ready. An hour max. I wrap myself in my blanket and close my eyes while I wait.
My door opens with a thud and it jolts me awake. "You could've come help me with my stuff you know." I hear breannas voice before I turn around. "Sorry, I fell back asleep." I rub my eyes and stretch to wake myself up more.
"Ugh you and your sleep. So, are you excited?" She smiles really big at me.
"Excited? I'm tired." I yawn.
"Billie, it's your first party. Aren't you excited to see how the other half lives?" She laughs. "More or less." I shrug my shoulders. "Well we've got a lot of work to do so perk up those shoulders and go get dressed."
I comply with breannas wishes and go to my bathroom to throw on a t-shirt and jeans. When I come out she has my vanity chocked full of makeup and hair products. She laid our dresses on my bed. "God damn, I was only gone 5 minutes at most." I laugh.
"No time to waste, Come sit in my beauty chair." She smiles as I sit in the chair. Breanna turns the chair away from the mirror. "Hey, what if I wanted to see?" I frown. "You can see the finished product. We're going full face." She smiles deviously. "Oh no, I'm scared." I make an over exaggerated expression. "Shhh, let the master do her work please."
