Out of Time [Steve Rogers/Captain America Fan Fiction]

Chapter 5: Too Silver

I went to my room and walked over to the bookcase and it slowly opened and the lights flickered on, i looked at my old suit and smiled, memories flooding back into my head of wars i had fought in. I looked at the newspaper clipping and pictures of me with howard stark and pictures of me and steve as we grew up together and the one all the way to the right was a picture of me and him when he first became captain america. I took out the suit and laid it out on the bed, i was going to slip it on for old times sake, i figured it would help me feel better, as i slipped on the thick high heeled boots, gloves and suit, i smiled as i looked at myself, it was tight, it was black with a captain america star on the right arm, on the right arm my rank and a silver eagle that was used for the unit steve lead that i took over, on the front my alias was embroidered in sliver, 'The Evening Lily' which was a strange name, i thought to myself but its what the soliders called me. I let my hair down and walked to the mirror. I smiled and then thought of what tony said to me, 'We don't need the old girl...she's too silver.....', i felt a tear fall from my eye "too....silver....tony's right....", i maybe over 90 years old, but i hadn't aged, i still had the mind and body of a 25 year old. I sighed and turned, i stopped when i saw steve, i didn't know what to do, he just stood there looking at me, when did he walk in?, how long had he been there? I sighed, "Steve...i......ummm....i...." i sighed and walked into the other room, i felt so embarassed. 

Steves P.O.V

I walked into the room and stopped when i saw lilli admiring herself in her suit, i watched as she told herself, "too...silver...tony's right......", she turned and saw me, i saw the hurt in her eyes, "Steve...i...ummm.....i......" she quickly ran from the room and i felt my heart skip, she looked so beautiful, i thought of what tony had said and i felt a rage start burning inside me, howard would have never told her that if she was alive today, he believed in me and if he had made her for the same purpose he would believe in her too. I went to go after her and i stopped at the opened bookcase, i walked over and opened it, i stood there looking at the pictures on the wall, there were pictures of me and her as children, when we wen to our first dance and when i first became 'Captain America', i then saw newspaper clippings of when i broke the 400 men from H.Y.D.R.A facility and my obituary. She had saved this stuff over all these years, and then the thought popped into my head, the question i had asked her when i first got here, 'who was it you were in love with.....' she had never answered me. I turned and walked into the other room and looked at her, she was looking out the window crying, i walked to her and held her close, i hated seeing her like this, so unwanted. She had gone through enough in her life, "lilli.....please.....don't cry......" i whispered to her as she sat in my arms, she looked up at me her eyes full of tears, i wiped them away and looked at her. "i'm useless..... I was made for the same purpose as you....i fought of years now to be thrown away like a peice of trash......" she said as she burrowed her face in my chest. "lilli...please......your more than that...ok.....don't take him so literally.........we both know your not useless......" i said as i caressed her hair, "Lilli... i wanted to ask you something.....", "w-what......" she said as she looked up at me. 

Lilli P.O.V

Having steve hold me was so comforting, he was the only person who understood, i felt him caress my hair, "lilli...... i want to ask you something.....", I looked up into his blue eyes and whispered, "w-what......". I saw him blush, "who was it you said you had fallen in love with.....the one who fell for another.....", i felt my heart skip, i got off him and leaned against the counter, "i....i...can't tell you....", he walked to me, "you said you would tell me if i asked you again..." he placed his hands on mine and held me against the counter, "who was it....." he whispered, i felt the tears come from my eyes, "steve...please.......", i looked into his eyes it was like he was begging me to say it, i bit my lip, "It...was...you....." i tore away from him and walked into my room and sat on the bed, i placed my face in my hands and cried. In my heart I never really wanted to tell him, he was peggy's love not mine, thats who his heart belonged to even if she was dead or not.

Steve's P.O.V

I stood there looking at where she had just stood, her words echoing in my head like a skipping record, 'It was you.....", me, i as the one she had loved all these years, it made sence, she had kept all our pictures, newspaper clippings and she never let me stay alone when i got hurt or when i was rejected by the military she was there to support me, she even attended every captain america show i had done even if she had to spend all her money, she was there supporting me. I felt like an idiot, peggy was right, i really didn't know what a woman was thinking, i sighed and removed my helmet, i sat it on the counter and walked into lilli's room. She was sitting on her bed, her face in her hands, she was crying silently, i came to her and lifted her face to mine her beautiful green eyes meeting mine.

Lilli P.O.V

I looked into his blue eyes and he smiled, i was shocked i thought he would have been cross with me, he leaned towards me, i sat there blushing and then it happened. He gentily kissed my lips, i blushed and i felt tears falling from my eyes, he was my first kiss, i had waited so long, eachday thinking i would never have this. As we pulled apart he had tears on his face, i wiped them, "why are you crying.....i'm the one who should be....." i said between tears, "why..." he said as he looked at me, "i never told you my feelings......i got the letter from you in 1943 telling me you had met peggy and you were happy.....i didn't want to ruin your happiness with my selfish feelings....." i looked awy from him, ".....I was happy with peggy......but she isn't the one iam in love with......i'm letting her memory rest in peace so i can start new memories....and i want them to be with you...if you will have me.....your not too silver for me......your golden lillian...." he whispered as he kissed my hand, i looked at him, my heart skipping. "yes....i will have you......i always wanted to be yours....." i said as he pulled me into his arms. I smiled and listen to his heart as he held me, i finally felt wanted for the first time in seventy two years.

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