1. Five ways to win my heart: 1) show me you're a good person 2) show me that personality hun 3) give me hugs 4) make me laugh 5) make me feel how no other person has made me feel before
2. I feel strongly about treating people fairly
3. I love the book Wonder so much, and the movie has amazing too.
4. My day:
•woke up
•turned on my phone and checked it, sent texts, read a comic, then got up and put my phone on the charger
•washed my face
•tried out my new makeup
•lied down and went on YouTube
•got coffee and went back to YouTube
•played with a ferret briefly
•had to do chore
•talked to little brother
•changed shirt
•got back on my phone and texted and did other stuff, like this
5. If I were to say something to my ex it would be: purchase a waxing kit and put it to use, don't be creepy towards girls, and move away like you said you would.
6. I don't really care about mainstream music. I guess some of it is good, but I don't really listen to it unless I hear it on the radio.
7. Five pet peeves: 1) keep your damn feet away from me 2) don't breathe in my face 3) use manners 4) when you're on the bus and someone needs somewhere to sit and someone else is being a conceited little asshole by putting their bag by them while there's literally no where else to sit 5) rinsing off your dishes after you're done with them so they're easier to clean later
8. I haven't eaten anything because I enjoy starving myself :,)
9. I think education is somewhat important, like you definitely need to know how to read and write and do basic math and have a basic understanding off history, stuff like that. And I definitely think if you want a job that requires a certain education-like working on mechanics or anything medical- you need education so you know how to do it.
10. 1) Blood//water by grandson 2) Broken by Lovelytheband 3) I'll be good by Jaymes Young 4) Moondust by Jaymes Young 5) Dance with the Devil by Breaking Benjamin 6) Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne 7) I'm not gay by J Pee 8) The only exception by Paramore 9) Heavydirtysoul by Twenty One Pilots 10) SAIL by Awolnation. That took a while 😅
11. My family is made up of five people, including myself. I've got a mom and dad, and two little brothers. I get along pretty well with them, sometimes we fight. My mom is an amazing human being-even though she's a total freak sometimes- but I don't get to talk to her as often because she works all the time. My dad is at home all the time, and I don't talk to him a lot because he's pretty aggressive with everything he says so I like staying away from that. My brothers are laid back but very expressive. We either love each other or we want to rip each other to absolute shreds. It's a good relationship to have I think. 😉
12. Five guys I find attractive? Ugh. Not answering this.
13. My body is pretty small, pretty pale. I'm mostly comfortable with it, although sometimes I notice something about it and get super insecure. Like I'm really skinny, so I feel the need to gain more weight but every time I gain weight I feel like a fat disgusting piece of lard even though no matter what I'm always underweight. And my hair is really dark which means the rest of my body's hair is too, and so I hate that. Cause I'm so pale, it's so noticeable. Those are really all the complaints. I feel comfortable with it on a daily basis unless I take the time to notice what I don't like.
14. I wore a white spaghetti strapped tank top, black leggings, black ankle socks, and a gray zip up hoodie.
15. My zodiac is Virgo the Virgin. The pure zodiac in touch with Earth or whatever. If you look up characteristics to Virgo's, it's pretty accurate with me.
16. I always ask myself "what if I wasn't here, what would happen?". I think back to times and ask myself what if I didn't do 'this' and 'this' would be a certain situation I was in where I did whatever it is that I did. I wonder about all the possibilities and outcomes that could've happened all the time of past events, which is pretty unhealthy. Don't do that kids.
17. I am proud of the fact that I have opened myself up more in recent years and taken more risks than I would have in the past.
18. I had a problem with telling people one thing and doing another, so lying. 🙂
19. Five items I lust after? 1) a fluffy jacket I can wear to school 2) a giant soft cookie 3) a bucket of pastel (insert color here) paint 4) a pair of headphones that work 5) boots
20. I already listed my fears in the last one of these I did, but here we go: failing, rejection, spiders, home invasion, getting in trouble, getting someone hurt, someone I love dying or getting hurt, large groups of people, being in front of people, being the center of attention, dying slowly, asking for help, and that's it.
21. I hope my future will be peaceful. I hope that I'm somewhere safe and secure and everything in my life is stable; my relationships, my job, my income, my mental state, etc.
22. My academics? Um I'm either passing with a B or I'm failing... 😓
23. I miss the old days where I wasn't anxious about everything. I was able to remain calm and do what I wanted/ needed to do, and that was nice.
24. Five words or phrases that make me laugh? 1) butternut 2) shlong 3) cumslut 4) 'get shreked in the shrektum' (that one was made up by my brother..) 5) 'fuck me gently with a chainsaw' ~heathers.
25. Something I'm currently worrying about is...if my parents even trust me.
26. Okay so well start with negative first then positive. What I dislike about myself is: my voice, my body, the way my mind works, and the way I react to things. I hate the way I sound, like my voice is not very feminine and it's gross. I sound annoying. My body we've already gone over that. My mind is irritating because it doesn't work properly, like I have bad anxiety that makes me worry about everything and then it makes me hate myself for not being able to do anything because I'm so anxious so then I get depressive. Whole circle of issues just in the way I think. And then I react late or like an idiot. Lol. I later come up with better ways I could've reacted to anything and then I'm mad at myself for not thinking. So there's things I dislike, now things I do actually like about myself: I'm a naturally kind hearted person, I will love you to death so easily and unconditionally, I try to be understanding in things, I like doing things in a certain way and I like that, and that's all.
27. "Fake it till you make it". 😅 yep this one does me good, I fake confidence and being calm all the time and it makes me feel proud of myself by the time everything is over. This way I get things done, and no one ever knows that inside I was dying. Win- win.
28. I would like to visit an amusement park.
29. Five weird things I like? 1) petting people's eyebrows 2) painting my hands and arms 3) weird noises 4) feeling empty-like not eating wise 5) some of the people in my life
30. I'm excited to have my license and my very own car. Of course that's not happening any time soon 😢 but I can't wait for when it does.
