i dont exactly know if people get triggered by this but in this chapter there is and anxiety attack so if that stuff bothers you, youve been warned.
james:
"hey kitty girl!" i say to emma, she looks startled and shakey. "hey," she says weirly. "um emma are you okay? you look a little, well, horrible." "oh im okay, i just need to use the restroom." and as she says that she quickly walks to the guest bathroom. that was weird i thought.
grayson:
i nudge ethan and whisper to him, "dude your so crushing on emma." he blushes. "what gray? no im not!" he nervously laughs, hes totally crushing on her. we both look back at emma and james just to see emma shakily walk to the bathroom. "whats up with emma?" i ask. "im not sure, she seems anxious." james replies. huh, weird.
emma:
as soon as i finished speaking to james i ran/walked to the bathroom. as hard as i tried i couldnt keep it in, i started sobbing uncontrollably, i tried to steady my breathing but couldnt. come on emma! i said to myself, you havent had a panic in months! i dont know what someone said or did, but this one was bad, i wondered if i should text james. but i dont want him to tell the twins. i look in the mirror and its only worse, i have mascara running down my cheeks and i have two little wet marks on my red jeans from resting my head on my knees. i didnt know what to do. i sat back down on the floor leaning against the tub, and tried to regain my composure.
ethan:
i was thinking about what gray said when we entered james filming studio. maybe i do like her? ugh. i dont know. i sat down in the corner of the room and look up, "guys is emma back yet?" i asked, but nobody seemed to hear. i got up and walked over to the bathroom that i saw emma go into and knocked on the door. no reply. "emma?" nothing. i knocked again a little louder. still nothing. i reach for the doorknob to step in but she locked it. dammit. i reach up abpve the doorframe of james bathroom and thank god, theres a key. i fiddle with it in the lock until i hear a click. "emma, im coming in yell now if i cant!" no reply. i finally open the door to see emma, collapsed on the floor by the tub, sobbing, trying to catch her breath. "oh my god, emma!" i immediately sit on the ground next to her and grab her into a bear hug. "emma breathe with me, in and out, in and out." she begins breathing a little more normally. "emma what happened?" she wasnt speaking. i realised that it probably wasnt the right time to be asking her all these questions.
emma:
i knew i shouldnt be here, ethan with his arms around me, crying, i looked pathetic. i tried to say thank you but the words wouldnt come out. i just buried my head farther into his chest, red with embarassment. then all of a sudden i hear familiar voices, its james and grayson. but all i heard was ringing and soon enough i was asleep. i woke up on a bed, james bedroom. nobody was around. my head pounded. i sat up and looked on the bedside table, all that was there was my phone and my, now melted, coffee. all of a sudden ethan walk in to the bedroom. "emma!" he exclaims, "your awake!" i look and him and weakly mumble, "what the fuck just happened?" as i let myself fall back on james pillow. he sits down and tells me everything, about how he found me on the bathroom floor, and how i passes out. i interupted him mid sentence and just said, "im sorry." "for what?" he looked puzzled. "for making you take care of me and see me like that in the first hour of us meeting..." he looked kinda sad. then all of a sudden he hugged me, but it felt nice, he was way bigger than me, and warm. i hugged him back, after about 30 seconds of our warm embrace the door opened and ethan quickly let go of me and looked towards the door. it was grayson and james. shit, i thought, theyre gonna think we like each other. i blused madly, so was he. grayson and james just looked and each other and burst out laughing, dorks.
ethan:
hugging emma felt right, like we were meant to be there, together. i felt horrible seeing her like i had seen her but i knew it still wasnt right to try to invade her privacy.
woah. this chapter was crazy! im so sorry if it wasnt accurate :( ive (thank god) never witnessed or had a panic attack so i didnt know exactly what to do for it. tell your friends about me please!! i would love to get some views on here :) well anyways, bye!! live ypu guys!
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