Kiss Kiss Now You're Gay [OHSHC FANFIC] (Tamaki x Male!Reader)

Squad Goals

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It was about nine zero nine and guess what? Everyone that was invited was here. Or, rather, everyone who said they would Come was here. Kyoya said he was busy with family business stuff, Ritsu had his Yukaza things at home to deal with, and Renge was hanging out with Camille today at her house for some reason. Hikaru and Kaoru actually knocked on the door and wanted to join the group instead of stalking them. Tamaki was still nowhere to be seen. You asked Haruhi to wait until Nine Fifteen to leave just in case he was running a little late. You stayed by the door looking out through the window by the door for Tamaki. Kaoru must have noticed you. He sat next to you without you knowing it. You only really noticed his presence when he spoke you.

"You really want Tamaki to show up, don't you?"

You turn around, blush dusting your face. You clear your throat and look him in the eyes. Without Hikaru, Kaoru was a lot more compassionate and understanding. He was more individual and less of a follower when he and Hikaru are separated. On the flip side he's always sadder when he's alone. You know for a fact he would much rather be around Hikaru than be on his own. Hikaru probably ditched him for a conversation with somebody or for the bathroom. You sigh and just fake a smile at him.

"Yeah. I just thought he would make this place more fun, you know?"

Kaoru looked around for some reason. When he was sure nobody was listening in, he leaned in a little bit with a knowing look on his face. Oh no. That's a bad sign. That's a really really bad sign. 

"I have a feeling you want him to be here because you love him."

You squeaked and it was your turn to frantically look around. Please let no one have heard that, please let no one have heard that, PLEASE LET NO ONE HAVE HEARD THAT! You exhaled in slight relief when you were certain nobody heard what Kaoru said. You stared at Kaoru a moment, not wanting to say a word. You weren't going to say a word. Your eyes can confirm his suspicions for him. What you were curious is how he knew. Yeah, you wwre obvious as hell, but you thought everyone here was dense as a rock. Kaoru chuckled lightly yet darkly. Melancholy dripped in his voice with his next line of dialogue.

"I know the anticipation, the longing. That feeling of always wanting that person there with you. Hikaru and I have both felt it. If you ever need anyone to talk to, talk to us. Or just me. It's  not good to bottle your feelings up. I should know more than anyone."

You paused, taking in what he said. Did that have something to do with his old girlfriend? Or sowmthing entirely unrelated? Before you could ask, KaoruKs face suddenly went very Grim. It was like he was zoning out, thinking about it. You opened yo ur mind mouth and you were about to ask him about it, but he stood up and flashed an obviously fake smile.

"Well, I shoulda go find Hikaru. Twins need eachother, right? Remember, I'm right here if you need me."

Like that, Kaoru walked away. You didn't go after him. If he doesn't want to talk about it, you won't push him. Everyone has their demons. Kaoru didn't seem ready to face his, you could relate to that so hard it was painful. You looked back out through the window, not realizing that it was almost Nine fifteen. Where was Tamaki? Why wasn't he here? He should be here, shouldn't he? It's a time where the entire club should be ha going out together. 

"Hey, is everyone ready to go? We need to get over to the mall before it floods and we lose all the good sales."

You sighed sadly and stepped away from the window. Kaoru was back to smiling and miming with his brother Hikaru. He looked so much happier being by his side. His eyes completely changed. Hunni was riding piggyback on Mori since the ceiling wasn't high enough for him to be on his shoulders. Sora rushed out of the kitchen wearing his skirt skirt and blouse, shedding off his apron and latex gloves he borrowed from Ranka. Those two were peas in a pod. Haruhi was corralling everyone's together. You walked up to Haruhi. She focused her attention on you.

"Hey, need something?"

Now, with that sentence and that sentence alone, she reminded you of video game NPCs. You nodded and flashed her the best smile you could.

"Thank you for inviting me here and introducing me to your dad. This may not be the best thing for a boy to say, but You've made me so happy I want to hug you so thank you."

Haruhi just smiled, cocking her head slightly and holding in an aww. You could tell she was holding in that urge to Aww because she was biting her tongue. She also had that look in her eyes. She hugged you quickly. 

"There, you got your hug. Now we should really go. Come on guys! Move out!"

She called out the the hoarde of boys she has at her beck and call. Everyone went flooding out of the room and you just had a big grin on your face. You love your friends. You love the host club. You love the fact that you're able to do this with them. This was Squad Goals. This was a dream. You followed them out the door, closing it behind you because you were the last one out. You noticed how Hunnit shifted from being Piggy Back on Mori to behind Carrie do on his shoulders. Sora was walking beside Mori, holding up a conversation with Hunni and Mori just remaining silent. Hikaru was talking with Haruhi and Kaoru was walking behind him, staring at his brother with a heartbroken smile. You noticed it. You decided to pull Kaoru back. This was really bothering you that it wasn't okay. Screw his inner demons you wanted Kaoru to smile damnit! You grabbed his wrist and pulled him back at the back of the group.

"Hey, Kaoru. Are you okay? I should have asked while we were still inside but... You just look really sad and I don't want you to be."

Kaoru paused and looked at you before flashing you an incredibly fake smile. You weren't buying it. Your look must have made that pretty clear. You rose an eyebrow at him, not taking any bullshit. Kaoru's smile fell and he stared in your eyes. He sighed and averted his gaze, talking to you semi-about it.

"I'm fine. I promise. We shouldn't be dealing with my emotions right now. It's just holding everyone back. Let's have fun today and we can deal with my struggles another day, okay?"

You only now realized that the two of you have completely stopped, the group straying farther and farther away from the two of you. You couldn't care less. You don't care right now. Kaoru means more to you than the mall right now. If you need to you can convince Kaoru to hang out back here with Ranka while you wait for them to finish and you can text Haruhi a heads up if Kaoru really needs to talk.

"No. Not okay. Dude, you look like you're going to cry every time you're away from Hikaru or when he's talking to Haruhi. Is something up and how can I help?"

That must have broke him. His eyes instsntly wen red and watery. His hands went limp at his side and his mouth quivered. He was going to cry. 

"I'm sorry... I know I shouldn't be feeling this way... I'm sorry..."

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