only fools fall for you

5

A couple months later

I wake up in the morning and run my hands down my face.
I pull the blanket off and walk to my closet and grab a black shirt and pull on some black ripped jeans.
I pull a hoodie on too and grab my phone and bookbag.

I walk out of the room and go into the kitchen and grab a granola bar and leave.
I go to the coffee place and get one coffee and then drive to school. I walk inside and take a drink of the coffee and walk to my locker and grab what I need and then shove my book bag in and walk to my first hour.
At lunch, I sit by myself looking down at my untouched food.
I heard someone sit across from me and I look up and see Wade.
He smiled at me and I just look down.
He said "how are you" I said "just stop okay go sit at your own table" and then I get up throwing my lunch away and walking to my next class and I heard "peter wait up I wasn't trying I mean you just look sadder than usual" I sigh and said "yeah I get it just leave me alone" and then I walk out of the school.
I sit in my car and lay my head down on my steering wheel. My phone started ringing and I look and see it's MJ's mom. I quickly answer and say "hey is she okay" she sighed and said "honey" I close my eyes and feel tears and she said, "they said that it would be best for everyone if they took her off life support" I swallow hard and quickly say "okay" and then hang up.
I hold my breath and squeeze my eyes shut and finally I let it out and I cover my mouth with my hand and then my phone started ringing again and I look to see it's Tony and I shake my head and wipe my eyes and swallow hard I take a deep breath.
I answer and say "yeah" it didn't sound too off from how I've sounded in the past couple of weeks.
He said "hey Michelle's mom just called me a-" I say "she called me too" he stayed quiet for a minute and then I said "I'm gonna go down there now" he said "do you want me to come with you I mean" I said "no I'll be fine I'll see you tonight" he said "okay well see you tonight" and then I hung up and blink the fresh tears away.
I make it to the hospital and park and get out and walk inside to the front desk and checked in and then walked to Michelle's room and see Ned already there and he looked and gave a warm smile and got up out of the chair and gave me a hug and I hug back trying not to cry.
We all sat talking about all the fun memories we had with each other like the decathlon team going away on trips and the one time Michelle beat up flash. And then after an hour went by a doctor came in.
We all said our goodbyes and I was pinching myself to stop from crying. Ned and her mom were though and I really hoped that they didn't think that I didn't care because I wasn't.
He pulled the tube out and I just wanted her chest to move up and down by itself. To open her eyes and ask why everyone looked so sad.
But that didn't happen.
The heart monitor went flat and Michelle's mom clung onto Ned who was crying. I felt numb. I left and I sit in my car for a while just laying my head on in my arms on my wheel. My phone started ringing and I look to see it's Tony.
I don't answer but I finally start my car and leave. I drive back to the tower leaving my bookbag in the car along with my phone my mind not thinking of any of it and just wanting to curl up in bed. I walk through the front door and Tony hugged me and said "you weren't answering I was about to go down to the hospital and see if you were there" I nod and he was about to ask if I was okay but I just said "I'm just gonna in my room" he nodded and squeezed my shoulder and I walked to my room and closed the door and look at the plate from lasts night dinner half eaten.
I put my head in my hands and for some reason, my eyes fill with more tears and I grab my pillow and cry into it. It was the worst type of crying too. It was silent. I was holding the pillow to tight over my face that I couldn't even hear myself crying.
It hurt my throat not being able to breathe I fall to my side and finally let air in and it was kind of loud and I shove my face in deeper and that went on for a while until finally, I passed out from exhaustion.

I wake up to my door opened and someone standing in the doorway. I quickly sit up looking to see if someone was going to murder me.
It was Tony and I let a breath out and he said "I didn't want to wake you up but dinner is done" I nod and then his eyes went to the old food on the plate and said "just come out when your ready" I nod and then he left leaving my door opened.
I put my head in my eyes and sit there for a few minutes. I finally get up and walk out of my room and to the kitchen.
I felt their eyes on me and I make myself a plate and start to walk to my room I heard "Pete why don't you sit out here with us" it was Nat and she sounded worried.
I said "I have the stuff to do" and then I walk to my room closing the door behind me and I set the food down on my desk and I get on my computer and look through all the MJ posts.

People that didn't even know her are posting about her and that annoyed me.
I mean flash posted an r.i.p post and I just sigh. I run a hand through my hair and just go to my Spotify and turn on music and lay down in bed and stare at my ceiling. After a little while, I fell back asleep with the uneaten food and the music playing in the background.